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Archive for February, 2007

Do You Know…

Wednesday, February 28th, 2007

“Do you wanna run away together?”
I would say it was your best line ever.
Too bad I fell for it…
And I walked along,
Waiting for you to come along.
Take my tortured heart by the hand.
And write me off.
Do you know I cry?
Do you know I die?
Do you know I cry?
And it’s not the good kind…

You forced me to become strong.
And I just cried, being weak.
And you think you know.
And I would like to think so,
But do you know that when you go,
I fall apart.
Do you know I cry?
Do you know I die?
Do you know I cry?
And it’s not the good kind.
No, you’re the good kind…

I’m tired of hiding behind these lying eyes,
I’m tired of this smile that even I don’t recognize.

Do you know I cry?
Do you know I die?
Do you know I cry?
And it’s not the good kind…

No, you’re not the good kind.
Do you know I cry?

 

Song From: The Wreckers
Entitled: The Good Kind

It Hurt Me…

Wednesday, February 14th, 2007

As my travels led me to a place you love, I was shocked at what I found. The magic you used was completely different from mine. It was alright at first, as I tried to grow accustom to the ways of your land, but unfortunately, the language you spoke was not the same as my own.

How unfortunate that I thought you would take me seriously when I asked the silliest of questions…

Why was it that at that moment, when I was at my breaking point, you found it a light matter? Right now, I understand it, but back then, I had no idea. This land of yours, the place you hold dear, everything is unfamiliar to me. And it hurt me for a while to think that you weren’t taking me seriously… It seemed rude to be talking to someone else about the problems I was experiencing with my magic, when I was right there in front of you.

Is it hard for you to talk to someone like me who doesn’t know about your Sorcery? Yet I want to learn more about it, and I try hard to… I am familiar with the old texts from long ago, but yours is all new now…

Is it bad for me to know these Arts?

Am I a burden to you when I ask for help?

In your eyes, was I really that incompetent?

I’m sorry that I’m not like you, and I’m sorry that I prefer to ask first before researching on my own. I’ll do my best to find things out for myself now instead of having to ask you all the time.

The last thing I ever wanted was to be a burden to you…

I sometimes think that… perhaps…

Would it have been better if I had stayed a stranger to you? Dear Saint Valentine, you are but a cruel fate… You will always conquer the many and spare the few, leave everyone bleeding and still have them long for you.

Masahiro-sempai…

Wednesday, February 7th, 2007

Amidst nearing graduation from the Magician’s Academics to lead up to the Higher Levels, the 7th Child encountered someone she holds dear… He was from the Orient, and at first was made fun of by other people because of his poor Language Skills; until he adapted to his new environment and became one of the most sought after wizards in their school…

He was Hara Masahiro… a gentle young man with a love for all things. To the 7th Child, he was the first to openly claim of his religion, not fearing prosecution and ridicule. It was the first time the 7th Child found one of the attributes she wanted in the person she will choose to truly love…

But was this love? Hitori had no way to compete with her rivals, who were plentiful… As much as Masahiro-sempai gave her some of his attention as gratitude for staying by his side when he was excluded, it was not something Hitori could bear with.

Everyone loves Masahiro, and Masahiro loved to be loved… Although he was a man who would love only one girl forever, now was not that time. He did not want to part with the attention he began recieving.

For a time, Hitori and Masahiro were always together. But even that had to stop. One of Hitori’s friends had also fallen in love with Masahiro, and Hitori could not bear hurting her friend. Understandably, this friend was not close to Hitori, and that’s the reason why she doesn’t know of Hitori’s love for Masahiro as well…

The Higher Levels of Magic were cruel to Hitori. Most students would not like to have anything to do with her, and so Masahiro could not be with her openly. “What would a powerful wizard want to have anything to do with a lowly commoner?” the people asked.

That was the last straw.

Hitori then decided to never go near Masahiro-sempai again… She wonders sometimes if Masahiro remembers her… But that is far from realitly…