please don’t read this if you have an innocent heart and believe that everything is beautiful with flowers and hearts and God’s glory.

because i am about to complain, about a true, sad and perhaps unfortunate story that happened to me in IB english.

Pride and prejudice has always been one of my favorite…and we were doing a presentation on it in IB english, which is a big deal coz its like 28 pages. so my group, has five people, and it is usually pretty nice coz you can get together in the weekend and talk and work. and since i am really good at english, i know what im doing, and i always get above 90s. but, but this time, the teachers, because they had to go to a confrence, because we need to do stupid CAT testing, they came up with the most ridiculous idea——-we are going to push your presentation forward, and HEY emma! you are presenting in 4 days! 4 days?? 4days??? are you kidding me? 4 days  i do not live for doing english presentation?!!?? i mean, we were suppose to have at least 8 days to write this giant 30 pages presentation, and now you give me four days?? (by the way, we were also suppose to write 5 journals and a world lit paper BEFORE our presentation). i was shocked to my very core…i did not know what i should do. i was sooo scared… i love the book pride and prejudice, i love it, but i would never imagine i would have to come up with a presentation for it using only 4 days. i know, from my past experince of doing many other presentations, that this is simply not enough time…… what is even more unfair, the other groups got to do it after the weekends, CAT testing, conference, even our final commentary exam…which in total, added up to almost 3 weeks or almost a month to prepare. This is not fair, it is just not fair. when i heard this very shocking decision, i cannot stop trembling with anger and fear. This is not fair, this is not fair! This is too much for us! I don’t know what i did that God is punishing me like this…i hated ms O. i hated her!!! she has not right to destory my good grades! she is a new teacher, NEW teacher!, and has absolutely no experince in teaching IB english!!! She is sooo shallow…she has no clue of how much burden we carry already.

and today, we got our marks back, and i got my very first 60%. i was so ashtonished. taking aside the fact that we don’t have enough time, my thorough analysis certaintly do not deserve this!!! i don’t know what has gotten into her, but apparently, everyone who went early got bad marks, and everyone after, got really pretty ones EVEN if they completely missed the point! i don’t know what to say, i wanted to argue with her, but 3 of my group memebers didn’t care. they were quite satisfied with their marks. On the other hand, the rest of us was definitely depressed. especially when we discovered that everyone in a group gets one mark!!! how unfair! it is clear that some of the group didn’t care enough to put effort into it, while the rest of us worked our asses off! we didn’t sleep more than 10 hours in those days and we get a 60%? i completely give up my french test and i still got a 60%? i put all my efforts  in to cover up other’s butt and i still, get, a 60%?

Where is my inner God?

Where is reason?

Where is rationality?

She is ignorant, and a lier. for she said that she was going to take consideration of the fact that we don’t have enough time to prepare. but she didn’t. instead, she said she’ll let us go last next time. well thank you. because i can easily get a 140% with some extra time. we didn’t get enough time this time, and next time we will get too much time, and worry about it all day long. and this is fair of course for the people who are going in the middle got to have just enough time once again.

SHe is so wrong. soooo Wrong!! there is never going to be a way to make up! it is not fair in the first place to give 4 days for such a big presentation! no matter how she arrange it it is not going to make up our 60%. even if i got a 100% so what? it is not going to change a damn thing! it is going to be on my transcript and when i submit it to U of T in dec they are going to think, gee she used to have a 95, now she has a 60!!! wonder if she is on crack this year. or you know had a baby or whatever (no offence to those who…)

by the way is it fair at all to make such an unreasonably tight deadline? all your IB nerds out there, probably have worse experinces than me! so help me out! what should i do?

i spent too much money this summer! its crazy! and well maybe it is good coz i’ll have lots cute designers for my last year of high school, but im totally going to LA for thanks giving!! which means i’ll be doing some massive shopping there… God this is soooo terrible!!! i hope i can stop this shopping madness, Ce n’est droit! je dois arreter!!!! Mon dieu…

anyways all of this is incited by the fact that i got a cute roxy sweater today. muahmuah! its navy blue with strips.

and the best thing is that it ‘ll keep me warm. so hopefully i don;t have to wear my super boyish northface (i think thats the brand of it). 

i really, really, really don’t trust technology. i hate wasting money. i absolutely hate it. if ebay is gonna eat up my 60$ i will sueeeee!!! i don’t care how much more money thats gonna cost i’ll get the best lawyer in town and i’ll sueeee till i get my item.

if i don’t get my items i’ll also sue canada post. and i’ll curse them soo badly that every single worker in canada post will be vomitting till the break of dawn.

i, hate, wasting money.

that is why i don’t go to casino, and because im underage.

the bloody ebay is so bloody stupid! i spent 60$ on an item and it hasn’t arrived yet! what a bloody slow shipment! and the stupid bloody canada post!

of course once i recieved my item i would be praising the lovely canada post and inspiring ebay.

but for now…

who the bloody hell invent ebay? it is such a money wasting bloody gambaling machine! i hate it!! i hate it!!! the bloody bloody hell with the bloody web site!!!

summer summer summer!!!! (drumroll in the backgroun)

it is really starting to bum me out though…coz all my friends live in the other end of the city…and i stuck here all by myself…and my mom doesn’t like sleep overs… so bum bum bum bum…..

i watched charlie and the chocolate factory yesterday…it was such a good movie!!! it makes me start to rite stories now…my latest creation is called “Annie and the diamind-heart ring” haha. but my imagination is not wild enough and i couldn’t find anything better to write about. seriously i suck at writing…it is just an inpulse…

i went to the university yesterday hoping to see if the camp i went to last year is still there…haha, but i didn’t see them, guess the time wasn’t write.

anyhoots, off to lunch! muah!

oh my god!!!! summer is finally here!!! though im gonna miss my friends and the cute guy in my class haha!

thats right!

summer is almost here!!

i think im gonna hit to the study now…

i’ve freshly out of camera pictures of me and my gals…but how do u post pictures?

omg god this is not good…im soo slack when i should be busy studying for my finals…i mean, what else could i possibliy be doing other than play freecell all day!!??? i thnk i need to delete that game, seriously, like i have been spending a lot of time on the computer playing nothign but freecell!!!1!

this is not good….i shud be studying…but im not…oh god i hate finals…its soooo streeful…and you don’t know what to do with your world lit paper!!!

i wish i will forget freecell and work hard….