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Leaves on the Lake

Monday, January 28th, 2008

I really love artsy shots. Part of the reason why I don’t like bright colors in photos is that I have this notion that you don’t need these to draw attention to what you took, much like in writing, where you don’t need to use “!!!”, bold fonts, and such devices to make people read what you wrote. Understated things draw me more, maybe because everyone else pays attention to the “loud” ones, and I don’t really like fighting with someone over something.

Here is a photo that’s a good example of understated beauty:

It’s simple, and has only a few elements, and yet there is something haunting about it. Instead of practically shouting at you to look at the picture, it draws you to it instead, and the more you look at it, the more you appreciate it.

Come to think of it, that’s how I see people too, and how I appreciate them more. It’s not about how much they appear, as it is the way that they present themselves, because it is only there that you get even just a glimpse of who they really are.

 

Footprints in the Sand

Monday, January 21st, 2008

Mary Stevenson

 

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there was one only.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from anguish,
sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints,
so I said to the Lord,
“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there has only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?”
The Lord replied,
“The years when you have seen only one set of footprints,
my child, is when I carried you.”

No explanations needed.

 

 

Blessed be Your Name

Thursday, January 17th, 2008

 

Blessed be your name
In the land that is plentiful
Where the streams of abundance flow
Blessed be your name

Blessed be your name
When I’m found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be your name

Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say…
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name

Blessed be your name
When the sun’s shining down on me
When the world’s all as it should be
Blessed be your name

Blessed be your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there’s pain in the offering
Blessed be your name

Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say…
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, Blessed be your name

 

I don’t really know who released this song originally, but the Newsboys, Tree63, and Matt Redman have all released their versions of this. My favorite’s got to be Matt Redman’s because his is arranged as a rock song.

 

This is one of my favorite songs, and when we sang it during worship Tuesday night, I was filled in awe all over again. What I love the most about this are the lyrics, because they describe just about every situation we find ourselves in.

 

In the land that is plentiful… These are times when we feel as though luck is on our side, because everything seems to be going well, and we’re receiving so much - whether it be love, companionship, provisions, or anything else that we need, even want.

When I’m found in the desert place/Though I walk through the wilderness… For Christians, this would be our “dry periods.” This is the time in our life when we feel so oppressed, as though we’re fighting against the world, and we have no one on our side. For me, this is a harder situation to be in than to be going through suffering, because while you may not be going through any trials physically, there’s a heaviness in your heart that doesn’t seem to go away no matter what you do.

 

When the sun’s shining down on me… When we are happy and contented with our life. Everything is going well, and there doesn’t seem to be anything more that we would want.

 

On the road marked with suffering… This is the time of trials, when we really are going through difficulties, no matter how small or big these are. There are so many ways that we can be oppressed, and sometimes, these could happen simultaneously.

 

Now, you could say, “I can imagine being thankful when I’m happy, but when I’m miserable? No way!” You know what, that’s precisely the time when you should really turn to the Lord in thanksgiving, because that’s when He’s really working to purify you. Lots of people could go up to Him and be all thankful when their circumstances are well, but when things take a turn for the worse, they begin to blame Him for their misfortunes. Don’t do that, because those are the times when God is cleansing you of whatever is barring your relationship from Him - whether it be an excess of pride, of anger, of vanity, or whatever it may be that’s keeping you from enjoying a closer friendship with the Lord.

It’s really a valuable lesson I’ve learned over the years, to be thankful. It’s an acknowledgement that those things aren’t from you, but from a Higher Being, and that no matter how difficult our present circumstances might be, everything has a purpose and will work out in the end. We can take that opportunity to learn and be better people - or we can go and complain and grumble, and all we’ll end up accomplishing is annoying the people around us and being heavy-hearted and angry about what we’re going through.

Try it out yourself.:) It’s really something that would lighten your mood.

 

Christmas Trees

Thursday, December 20th, 2007

 

This picture gives me a warm and fuzzy feeling that I always attach to Christmas. I love how the lights, while giving sparkle to the shot, appears “semi-matted,” in that it doesn’t overwhelm any part of the picture but instead highlights it, even the gifts, even if these are shown in darker lighting.

I hope there’s no one here on Sanrio town who’s feeling like a scrooge. Christmas should be a season for celebrating, not bitterness.:)

 

The Cross

Thursday, November 22nd, 2007

 

Stop right there. That’s exactly where I lost it.
See that line. Well I never should have crossed it.
Stop right there. Well I never should have said
That it’s the very moment that
I wish that I could take back.

- Relient K, Who I Am Hates Who I’ve Been

 

Looking at people these days, I’m guessing that we’ve broken God’s heart all over again, not just because we haven’t put Him first, but because we’ve forgotten Him altogether, and ignored the value of the Cross, the ultimate symbol of our freedom.

What is the Cross, exactly? Is it a mere symbol? No, it’s not. It’s something that is very real, even after around 2,000 years. It’s the ultimate price paid so that we would have a second chance at life. It’s the value not only of our generation, but also those from the past and those that are in the future. It’s death that brought about life. It’s extreme pain because of complete, total, and unconditional love. It’s where Someone bled so that His blood would wash us of guilt.

Why is it that when faith is brought into a conversation, people become still and uncomfortable? I don’t think it’s just a matter of conflicting beliefs. It’s a refusal to face the facts, that because of what we’ve done, Someone had to die. That Someone is the Son of God who is God Himself, a Being so pure and blameless, yet took on the weight of our sin as His own just so we might have another chance. You can just imagine Him saying, “Maybe, just maybe… If I did this, maybe they’ll finally listen. Maybe they’ll finally realize that I love them and I want the best for them. Maybe they’ll see that if I took their burden once and for all and gave my life in exchange for theirs, maybe they’ll stop hurting themselves. Maybe they’ll stop trying to kill themselves and others.

 

Jesus. Why is mentioning His name enough to bring shouts and arguments? Attach that with His title of “Messiah and Christ” that makes people immediately put their backs up the wall? Why is it those who bear His name as Christians, those who have promised their lives for God, persecuted for being grateful that they’ve been given a second shot at making things right?

Why does the world hate someone who loves it so much, that He was willing to give Himself up in exchange for it? Instead of being thanked, why is He hated even more?

 

Sorry, Lord, for those times when I wasn’t able to fight for You. Sorry for listening to the whispers and mutterings of everyone else around me but not You.

Called

Wednesday, November 14th, 2007

I wonder sometimes why elders are called that. I’m not talking about their age, but on how they were appointed as such. How did they decide, “Hey, this person seems to be spiritually mature already. Let’s make him/her an elder”. It just seems so hypocritical at times, because one can always pretend to be “mature” just so please people, and that those who appoint these new “elders” are elders themselves. It’s like saying, “Congratulations, young one. You are now one of us.”

I’m not really being cynical about it. Well, maybe a bit, but do you understand where I’m coming from? How do they “call” people into service? How do they determine if one is fit enough to lead or to serve? Is it simply because of what they see? I’d like to believe that it all comes from the Lord, but sometimes, things just make me pause and force me to think about what’s going on. Do they choose these people in terms of conformity - if they seem to follow the rules that are being imposed? Is it in terms of “trainability” - how one seems to be malleable enough to be molded? I really don’t know.

I guess my being a Marxist is really something I can’t get rid of from the picture, because I really do believe that people are all on level ground - no one is better off than others. Maybe I’m treading on heretical ground as a Christian (which I am), but things are just too puzzling to be ignored. Maybe it’s just what’s happening in our group and not in others. I’m not seeking for perfection, but there should at least be a certain kind of logic in how they approach things. If there isn’t, fine, but at least they could provide even the shortest of explanations in how they determine things.

Full Moon

Wednesday, October 31st, 2007

In the spirit of Halloween…

 

In terms of photography, I haven’t taken a good shot of the moon yet, because my cameras aren’t so good as to be able to zoom that close and get a clear shot of it, as well as taking a picture of it in surroundings that are pretty nice.

In terms of beauty, I actually do love looking at the moon. I don’t really believe that admiring it is pagan, as some people have argued a number of times. For me, it’s a creation of God, so there’s really nothing wrong with appreciating it. Why not try it out yourself? Step out one clear night and just stargaze and also observe the moon. There’s an odd sort of peace that you feel. Maybe it’s the stillness of the night, or the calm brought about by the darkness, but it feels pretty good.

 

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Histo-Tripping

Monday, October 15th, 2007

Both my parents and I went on another trip over the weekend, in one of the known old cities here in our country. Even though I’ve been in the place in the past, yesterday was the first time I’ve actually explored it (but not that much). The first time, we went there past midnight, so there wasn’t really anything to see anymore. The second time, we only stayed in one place the entire time we were there (it was a fair of sorts, and we had to watch over a booth), so we didn’t really get to see the sights.

Anyway, we had the chance to explore the place a bit (not as much as I would want to though), so I got some pictures that I’ll try to upload to share with you people.:) Wish I could go back there soon though: as you might have noticed, I have this thing for historical places.:P I would’ve wanted to check out the dungeons and prisons, but it wasn’t meant to be.:(

 

Here’s a teaser (I found this on the Internet, though, so kudos to the one who took this shot):

 

 

Servant of All

Tuesday, October 9th, 2007

I was a servant in the recently-concluded conference.

 

“Servants” almost from the beginning of time have been looked down on. Following people’s standards, it’s understandable. After all, the servants were practically at the bottom of the food chain. They had no rights and can only do the things that their masters have told them. It’s not really the best situation to be in, if we were to base it on worldly perspective.

 

Maybe it’s because of the “It’s All About Me” perspective that we’re trained to have. As they say, it’s a dog-eat-dog world out there, and if you don’t go and fight your way to the top, someone will go and knock you out in his/her desire to be in that coveted spot. We’re too focused on what we want to achieve for ourselves that we fail to pay attention to everyone else. If ever we do look around us, it’s probably because we want to see how they’re faring, and how we can be on top of them all.

 

Cynical? Yeah, probably, but that’s really how we operate these days. That’s why it’s so hard for us to go and follow Jesus’ command, to go and be the servant of all (Mark 9:35).  

 

Servant. That’s what we who work for the ministries are called. For some of us, it really means doing the typical chores that servants (or helpers, as they’re called now, to be politically correct), such as cleaning up, fixing things, etc. Others would do specialized tasks, such as cleaning up, acting as hosts, ushers, etc. All of us, however, are called servants, because what we do is that we look after the needs of other people. We try and go against our nature - the fallen nature of man - which is to put ourselves first. It’s hard at times, definitely, because it gets difficult when what you want to do gets in conflict with what is required of you. What do you follow? It especially gets tough when people are asking something from you from all sides, so much so that you don’t know where to face anymore, who you should prioritize, which should be tackled first. At the very best, it’s frustrating. At the worst, it becomes maddening, because it seems as though they’re always after something from you, but aren’t really concerned with who you are, how you’re doing, heck, even if it’s within your capacity to meet their demands. Yet by the grace of God, you continue to do so, because you know that ultimately, what you’re doing is the right thing.

 

It won’t seem so at first. When people become mean to you even if you’re doing the best you can to help them (and they’re not making your job easier, to boot), you’ll be wondering why the heck you’re doing these things. “Why am I being such a martyr?” “Why should I look after these people, when I don’t owe them anything?” “I’m losing rest and energy for this?!” Been there, complained that. When you choose to commit yourself to the Lord, it’s really not about instant gratification as it is on being far-sighted. What are you doing these for? For the Lord. For the promise of salvation. For the wonders of heaven. What is the purpose of this? My life, plain and simple. My purpose here on earth is not to be a hedonist and live and enjoy everything that the world has to offer, but to become a true daughter of God. At the end of the day, nothing beats the feeling of completion and fulfillment, that what you’ve done is good, and that you pleased your King. No words can describe it. Even if you’re tired, sick, and sweaty, there’s this wonderful feeling of satisfaction, that you’ve done something that actually means something.

 

Right now, as I’m typing this. I’m sick. I’ve got a cough, I’m feeling the portents of a cold coming on, and a fever is right there on the horizon. I’m happy and contented though, because I went through all these for a reason and a purpose - and it’s not because of my personal desires.

 

Thank You, Jesus, for this opportunity.

Best Nights of My Life

Friday, September 14th, 2007

Darkntwisty tagged me, so I thought I’d answer the question she posted on her blog.

 

Rule: Name five of the Best Nights of your Life [and then tag four people].

 

I don’t know who to tag (since I haven’t really spent the time exploring the blogs here at Sanriotown), but I thought it would be fun to answer these questions.:)

 

First Best Night: Attending the concert of Switchfoot

Switchfoot has got to be one of my favorite bands of all time, so watching them perform live was an awesome experience. I had my friend who met the guys sign all my CDs (I have all of them), and that was pretty cool. I just wish I was able to meet them myself. Tim Foreman is amazing.

 

Now, if I could just see Lifehouse and Relient K live, I’d be one happy girl.

 

Second Best Night: Attending the Hillsong United Concert

Hillsong United is the youth ministry of Hillsong, one of the biggest churches in Australia. They come up with amazing rock songs that are really cool but are all about God. Seeing them live was a dream come true.

 

Third Best Night: Attending the Jars of Clay Concert

Sorry, I just love concerts.:) There’s something about watching them play in front of you and not just listening to a CD is really cool. But I promise, this is the last on my list (just because I didn’t really like the other ones I’ve watched :P)

About Jars of Clay, they’re not like my usual music (rock, alternative), but I’ve loved them from way before, so they’re pretty cool.

 

Fourth Best Night: I don’t really have a title for this, but it was during this night that I became definitely sure about this guy. ‘Nuff said.:P

 

Fifth Best Night: Disneyland Fireworks

My mom and my sister, along with my aunt’s family, went to Disneyland during the holiday seasons of 2001, and we stayed there until around midnight, where they set off these really pretty fireworks, some of which even formed a few of the Disney characters. That was such a great experience. My sister had a fun time too, just because she was able to add a lot of coins to her collection because there were a lot that were dropped on the floor.

Yes, she’s a bit strange, but then, so am I.:P