What the H…?
Has anyone ever felt that their life is like hell on earth? I sometimes feel that way, which is pretty ironic considering that I’m very outspoken about my faith. It’s just that, there are times when you feel as though everything’s getting messed up. It’s not just a simple matter of crashing and burning; if it was just you, it would be better, because you’d know that you have to do something about it. It’s when the external factors come and affect you from all sides that you’d feel tortured. It’s not that I’m being emo or anything. It’s simply that sometimes, one does get tired. Just because you present a brave face to people doesn’t mean that it’s the same thing that you feel inside. I admit, it’s hard to reconcile both images: that of one who seeks to live by faith to that of one who is actively questioning, asking, puzzling. I don’t think there’s a problem though, because it is through asking questions that one finds answers. One of our goals is to seek Jesus’ face, to come to know Him deeper each day. If we don’t actively chase after Him, will we or will we not find Him? It’s a two-way thing, of Him reaching out and us looking. If we become contented with what we know, will that make us deeper in our faith? I honestly don’t think so. Instead, it makes us complacent and apathetic of who we are and what we are created for. Jesus said in His sermon that those who suffer are blessed (Matthew 5:1-12). Why? Because they already know what it’s like to feel pain, hence, also the ones who need healing? Because their lives have been filled with darkness, and need light? I honestly don’t know. All I know is that without Him would be despair.
April 28th, 2008 at 4:05 pm
Intresting, but know that everyone at a certain point in life feel like their in a ‘hell on earth’ position from time to time, the basic truth is if God didn’t think you could get through a sitaution, He wouldn’t let you go through it. According to veiws of hardship, we are like iron that has inpurities and in order to remove the inpurites we must go through fire. God is the iron smith, we can only hope He forges what He will with us so we can take a dip in the water.