Been out of work almost three weeks ago. I’ve been doing nothing since then.  I meant to look for a job this week but due to our humid weather I became very lazy and decided not to pursue any actions until I had the inspiration to do so. Anyway, my mum said that my dad finally approves of the college course that I want to take up. I’ve been waiting to hear that for 8 freaking years! I had very high hope but now I’m having second thought. Why? Whenever my dad mention anything big time I know it’s all drawing. Meaning all plans and no action. Well there can be action if I make my move and take the entrance exam to the school that he wants me to study to. Oh, did I menntion that the school was a private university? Yeah, that’s why I’m having second thoughts. Let’s face it, I know our current financial status. We’re very close to bankruptcy. Where will he get the money to pay my tuition fee? Not to mention that my youngest sister is also going to college.  I’m not being pessimistic here, I just know what’s real and what’s not. I really want to indulge my father about his plans but I have to be honest with myself. I know they can’t handle that kind of financial situtation specially now that there’s the two of us going to college and his health problems. I know I will just have to wait.