Im sorry I sounded so melodramatic in my last blog. I was actually in a decent mood when I wrote and was only attempting to convey my frustration with my lack of control of my emotions some days. lol Im doing really well tonight. I just find it so much easier to express myself in writing. PLEASE do not worry about me so much. I am very dramatic in my blogs, as it is a release for me. I would rather let it out here in writing than to all my wonderful family and friends. They have so much on their shoulders as Im sure you all do as well. I have actually been using blogs to “let it out” for more than 4 years now. I just started doing it here because Im here more now with HKO.

Thank you so much though for all your heartfelt comments!

I don’t know why but after getting my call from my husband today (from Iraq), I fell apart. We were laughing actually, and saying sweet nothings about how much we loved each other. Nothing bad was shared or said. It was actually one of the best conversations we’ve had in a while. especially proud of myself for not breaking down in tears while talking to him.

As soon as we hung up though, I fell apart. Broke down in tears sobbing so hard, I swore the neighbors could have heard. (I hope not, how embarrassing) anyhow, that’s my drama for the day. Weird thing is, I have no idea why. Phone rang 5 minutes later and I acted like everything was ok, best I could. Who knows, this roller coaster of emotions while he is gone is both embarrassing and annoying.

I go to my parents for the weekend tomorrow, and gonna miss out on last day with HKO. Im so pouting over that. lol

Also, if someone could PLEASE tell me how I train my pet, is he supposed to be attacking monsters? If so, how the heck do you get him to do anything but follow you around. Pretty boring if you ask me.

I don’t know how to properly respond to everyone’s kind responses on here. I’m so used to myspazz, and this is foreign territory for me. Either way, thank you for making me feel important enough to read about.

Hugs, Love and Lots of Happiness to you ALL!

-Debbie

All in all today is a good day for me. I’m happy, its beautiful outside, the doors and windows are open, birds chirping…a good day.

So why frustrated? Well, my 16yr old plays highschool football. He has actually been playing football for 3+ yrs. Right now he is working and training hard towards a scholarship in football. The problem is, this year he injured himself after jamming his finger during a play. The trainer for the team looked at it, and told me not to take him in. that they wouldnt do anything for it and he didnt think it was broken. Following his advice and the urdging of my son to not be too over protective, I taped it for him and gave him some ibuprofen.

Now we are 3 weeks later, its still swollen and he is still in pain. Mind you he is just telling me this, the lil trooper. So Im worried and take him into urgent care. They xray it and find it was fractured, nearly taking off the end of a joint in the finger. Because its so late after the injury there isnt much they can do, and said I should have brought him in. Nice huh?

All my kid can think about is the loss of range of motion he has, and will it affect his chances in football. I feel so guilty, and bad for my son. The doctor gave him some excercises to do, and wants to follow up in 2 weeks to check his progress.  *fingers crossed* This all works out ok for him. Meanwhile Im thinking about calling the school regarding this.

We had a 4 day pass with my husband before he left for Iraq.  Dad missed his son so bad,  he embarrassed him in public giving a great big hug.  AWE!

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