okay, so u remember a few blog posts back i wrote about this guy i met at this hotel-y thing my family does every year and i went on and on about how awesome he was until it started sounding cheesy?  well i just learned that im going 2 c him again at another hotel-y thing in august :D  im happy about other stuff too such as i went shopping yesterday and its a pretty day out blah blah blah but thats the main reason that im happy :)  just felt like being annoyingly happy on my blog 4 a while

has it ever happened 2 anyone reading this when u cant fall asleep no matter what u try?  has it ever happened every night 4 a month?  Well it is very frustrating, especially if ur appartment/house is scary @ night.  and its very very frustrating if you are one of those ppl who think too much and then crazy things pop into ur head.  however, 2:00 am is perfect for: origami, reading, email checking, cleaning, t.v. watching( nothing scary), knitting, crocheting, sewing, eating burnt popcorn, and making random lists on ur blog.  however, i still think insomnia is the boringest disorder ever.  so… wow, that killed 5 minutes. sweet.

i wrote a bit more. tell me what u think.

I still remember the exact moment when life went rom normalcy to… whatever it is now.  I remember in perfect detail, the exact moment.

It was the summer between 8th and 9th grade, in late June.  All my girl riends had taken to ditching me (litterally:kicking me out o the house, leaving movies early, etc…) whenever their boyfriends asked them to, which I didn’t really appreciate.  So I was headded to meet  Marc, my best friend (who happened to be a guy) at a movie theater.  It was early afternoon, and the sky looked heavy, almost as i it was about to fall and sufocate all of Chicago.  It was exactly the type o thing that interested me, so I took out my sketch book to do a quick drawing.

Thats it.

Thats when my life changed.

Because, right as I was finishing my drawing, I heard the voice of my ather behind me.

“Hello, Ezmerelda”

I have never been close with my father.  Mostly because he ditched me and my mom when I was 6 to join the gedneric mafia.  But partly because we just never got along.  Which is why I spun around and said, in my snottiest voice, “what are you doing here?”

“Just saw you and thought I’d say hi.”

This was the only kind o contact we ever had because he was wanted by the police.  Stalkerish and creepy, I know.  But better than him stopping by the appartment and angering not only me and my mom, but the 5 police oficers that conveniently lived in the same building as the family of a wanted criminal.

“thats bull crap.  What are you really doing here?”

He seemed to be torn between playing innocent and being honest for a second.  Then he decided to be vague.

“you’ll find out” he said, winking at me.

As he walked away, I went to put my sketch book back in my purse , and found a note he had somehow slipped to me.  It said:

Meet me in the wal-mart parking lot at 8:00.  Come alone and DON’T be late.

 tell me what you think, plz.  be brutally honest.

horrible day.  perhaps one of the worst days of my life.  however, i sat down and wrote this.  no clue where it cme from, it just popped into my mind.  they say suffering inspires creativity.  tell me what you think.  be brutally honest.

Esmerelda stood in the narrow alley clutching the strange note she had recieved earlier that day in one hand, and a tazer in the other.  The note read:

Meet me in the alley across from the art supplies store at 7:00 tonight.  Bring whoever you like, but know that they will be sent away.  You will be very sorry if you do not come.

She reread the note she had already memorized as her mind began to wander.  She thought of how she had ended up here, drenched with rain in a dark alley, awaiting  a mysterious and potentially dangerous stalker…

Comment w/ opinions plz.  idk if its any good so im not gonna write any more till i know so tell me if you think i should write more…  thanx in advance.

have u ever met someone and instantly clicked??  that happened 2 me this weekend w/ this totally awesome dude, and we tlked a lot, (flirted a little *blush*) and yah but now my friend is being a beyotch and saying “you dont know the guy u met him this weekend!!”  and im all “dude chill im not obsessed or anything!!!”   i hate it when people think they know you as well as you know yourself and when they don’t like what they think your thinking they totally critisize you for something they made up.

but she totally doesnt even get it!  first impressions are really important to me and this dude (who will remain nameless) made an incredible first impression, plus he’s not a wannabe-emo/gangster/nerd(yes, ive met wannabe-nerds)/prep/anything else that i didnt think of, and he didnt wear those stupid-looking baggy pants where the butt is @ ur knees, has the same sense of humor as me, and he’s a musician-which automatically makes him waaaay awesomer than about 97% of the guys ive met.   am not saying hes my one true love or anything, but all that is kinda hard 2 ignore-4 me, @ least.  aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand he came up 2 and started tlking 2 me instead of the other way around, which is impressive 2 me.

my point is, dont talk when u dont know what ur talking about, but thats just what i think, are ya’ll siding w/ me and think shes overreacting that she shouldnt say im being crazy 4 liking him when she knows nothing about the guy, or do ya’ll think shes right and  im insane 4 liking him after a few days?  if you side w/ her (quoting school or rock) you’re not gonna get in troubleeee i want feedback. thanx.

ok, basically heres whats happened 2 me latley: my best guy friend started acting wierd and skipping school and picking fights over stupid stuff and i wuz all “dont be mean” but nicely but he wouldny stop and he took it 2 far one day and we dont talk anymore and havent all week and i wuz finally in a good mood cuz there wuz no one attacking me constantly over stupid stuff and i wuz buying new shoes and wearing pink and skipping and turning into myself again, but he just myspaced me and sent me this stupid message that said “its funny how people end up being who they said they never would be” or something like that and i tried 2 message him back to say “what does that mean????” but myspace wouldnt let me cuz he only lets his friend send him messages and i deleted him and im confused about it cuz hes the one who started acting all wierd and im trying 2 4get about it but my mom wont stop talking about it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  anywayzz.. any tips on how 2 cheer myself up??? ive eaten a bunch of sugar  and am wearing my favorite color (pink).  HELP!  thanx in advance.

i thought my v-day curse might break since im spending it on vacation in miami, but nooooooooooooooooo, i had 2 spend the whole day w/ killer sunburn, get attacked by seagulls, and watch an italian dude in a speedo flirt w/ my mom (gross gross gross!!!!).  am now avoiding the cruel world in a hotel room listening 2 old music while my lil sis does a puzzle (can u say party?) in a desperate attempt 2 cheer self up.  am i the only 1 w/ a v-day curse????  any other valentinez-h8rs comment so i kno im not alone plz? thanx.

in case u didnt know, 2day is the 10th anniversary of the powerpuff girls!!!!!!!!!!! =]
anyways..idk im just writing this cuz im bored and the powerpuff girls wuz like my favorite show when i wuz little…so yah. =]

good news: my friends ex who she likes doesnt like me anymore and im ticked @ him so i dont have 2 worry about that anymore.

ok, random question: if u had a million dollars, what would u spend it on?

my answer: new clothes, converse, and lots and lots of Sharpie’s!!! and a king sized hersheys bar with almonds.

people in general are getting on my nerves.  my auntie just had a baby and the father lives in like canada or something and hes all ” im not paying child support and i dont wanna c her if she wants 2 find me when shes older she can but i dont wanna c her now”  can u believe that sum dude who had just learned he had a daughter would not only not want 2 c her, but also not want to pay child support????  well he has 2 pay child support, cuz its illegal not 2, but if that loser thinks he can just ignore his frikking daughter and her mother who barely have enough $$ 4 rent  then i hope the lawyer my mom reccomended takes all his frikking money and he is stuck freezing and starving in a hole somewhere.

im not normally that violent when im angry but i wanna stun gun this loser 2 death and i would (idc that i cant drive yet, id hitchhike 2 canada if i had 2) but if hes dead then he cant fork over any $$ 4 child support so ill let him live 4 now.