So there’s this guy…we’ll call him Jazz.  he’s in my 5th hour which is Spanish. the class I hate the most.  But actually… now that I know him better, I don’t hate that class so much. He’s really sweet. Jazz has got this somewhat of a funny bone on him. But I don’t if this is a good thing or a bad thing. because he’s one of Joren’s friends. So I don’t know what Joren will think. I mean it’s not like I like him, but I don’t know.

The thing about Joren is that I think I like him too much. Like he seems too perfect. I don’t know what it is, but I’m always worried about him. Not really him per say…more about his actions. I don’t know. Sometimes I just want to tell him how I really feel, but then I’m kind of glad he doesn’t know.

Joren says he worries about me too because all the guys that I hang out with are always messing with me and Joren thinks that they shouldn’t do that. I don’t know what it is, but I kind of agree with him. 

Kyle (Chloe’ is changing her name, :]) says: ‘The guys you hang out with are morons!! I hate how they’re always hitting on you, like you’re the property or something and they can just grad your ass whenever its convienient for them. Overall guys are butt-faces. Especially to girls as pretty as you.. They need to get over themselves. Once Joren’s gone, they’re going to be messing with you twice as much, show ‘em who’s boss. I hate to see people pushing you around!! Stand up for yourself girl!! (PS- Joren’s a great guy and he cares about you. He’s the only boyfriend you’ve ever had that isn’t using you (no offens, you have fine taste in men, they’re just asses when noone’s looking)) I love you, do what’s best (I know you can do it, ;])’

 I completely agree with my bff Kyle / Chloe’.  They treat me like shit. It’s like they don’t think we girls have any feelings. Except for Joren. He’s the only guy who seems to give a shit about anyone. He’s not selfish like all of my other guy friends.

Damn. I can’t shake the fact that Joren keeps worrying about me. I don’t want to make him worry, yet it makes me feel like someone out there actually cares. The only other person besides him who actually cares about me would have to be Kyle / Chloe’. Even my parents…they just don’t understand. And Savannah, she just doesn’t care. At least she acts like she listens. I guess that helps a little bit.

And you may be asking yourselves”What about Tyler?” Well, Tyler cares, he’s just never there when I need him. And somehow when I tell him my problems, he always turns it around and makes it about him. I don’t know, I guess that’s just life. Totally unfair.

You know what? This guy….we’ll call him Kid. He is my bestest friend. he is always there when I need a big hug. He’s like my own personal Teddy Bear. I love him!!!!!  : )  (PS- he has a sexy bod.)