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Here are the lyrics:

I’m starring at a broken door there’s nothin left here
anymore my room is cold
it’s makin me insane
i’ve been waitin here so long
but now the moment seems to’ve come
i see the dark clouds coming up again

running through the monsoon
beyond the world to the end of time
where the rain won’t hurt fighting the storm
into the blue and when i lose myself
i’ll think of you
together we’ll be running somewhere new
through the monsoon just me and you

a half moon’s fading from my sight
i see your vision in it’s light
but now it’s gone and left me so alone
i know i have to find you now
can hear your name
i don’t know how
why can’t we make this darkness feel like home

running through the monsoon
beyond the world to the end of time
where the rain won’t hurt fighting the storm
into the blue and when i lose myself
i’ll think of you
together we’ll be running somewhere new
and nothing can hold me back from you
through the monsoon

hey! - hey!
i’m fightin all it’s power
comin’ in my way
let it take me straight to you
i’ll be running night and day
i’ll be with you soon, just me and you,
we’ll be there soon, so soon…

running through the monsoon
beyond the world to the end of time
where the rain won’t hurt fighting the storm
into the blue and when i lose myself
i’ll think of you
together we’ll be running somewhere new
and nothing can hold me back from you
through the monsoon
through the monsoon
just me and you
through the monsoon
just me and you

   Well last night….wasn’t one of my best nights. I didn’t sleep at all.  I was too busy thinking bout how life is just totally, completely, and eternaly unfair. Like you ask for one thing, and you get something completely different.

  On Sunday, June 8th, I went to the Riverside Cemetary with my Dad and my brother. We went to see my grandpa and grandma(on my dad’s side) and My dad’s little sister, Terri.  Anyway, so I just sat down and started talking to Bigpa(that’s what we called him). And telling him how much I miss him and that I know we didn’t get to spend that much time together, but the time that we did spend together…those moments were priceless. And of course, I started crying. So did my dad.

 But after our “Lifetime” moment, we started To walk around and just look at all of the other graves. And Some of the graves that I saw, just made me stop and think….why? Why our some people’s lives so short. For example:

  There was this one grave of a little girl, and she didn’t even live long enough for her parents to give her a name. All I could do was just stop and stare. And just looking at that, it kind of scared me. Like why would someone take a little girl. I mean she didn’t even have a name.

And I saw another grave that was for a brother and sister who looked about the age of 5-ish.(there was a pic on the stone) And the writing engraved on the stone said:

 ”Our parents loved us dearly. But God loved us more. So He sent down angels to take us to Heaven.”

I mean, why would God take two little children like that. They didn’t even get a chance to live their lives. What did they do to deserve that?

And then I also got to thinking about our enironment. How people know that they’re ruining the world, but yet they still throw trash on the ground. Do they realize that they are the cause of global warming?

What really got to me though, is when I started thinking abot how everything in life, I take it for granted. I mean, some people/kids never get to experience any of the things I have done throughout my life. And I realize that everytime someone gets something, they always, always want more. Why can’t you just be happy with what you’ve got. Just be satisfied with what’s been given to you.

So as you can see, my night was kind of abnormal. But on Sunday, I also had my dance recital. I practiced all year for that, and everybody says I did great. I think I did flippin awesome. I don’t know.

Oh, and by the way, while I’m at it, I’m gonna give a shout out to all the fathers out there. Happy Father’s Day!

World Peace. 

So there’s this guy…we’ll call him Jazz.  he’s in my 5th hour which is Spanish. the class I hate the most.  But actually… now that I know him better, I don’t hate that class so much. He’s really sweet. Jazz has got this somewhat of a funny bone on him. But I don’t if this is a good thing or a bad thing. because he’s one of Joren’s friends. So I don’t know what Joren will think. I mean it’s not like I like him, but I don’t know.

The thing about Joren is that I think I like him too much. Like he seems too perfect. I don’t know what it is, but I’m always worried about him. Not really him per say…more about his actions. I don’t know. Sometimes I just want to tell him how I really feel, but then I’m kind of glad he doesn’t know.

Joren says he worries about me too because all the guys that I hang out with are always messing with me and Joren thinks that they shouldn’t do that. I don’t know what it is, but I kind of agree with him. 

Kyle (Chloe’ is changing her name, :]) says: ‘The guys you hang out with are morons!! I hate how they’re always hitting on you, like you’re the property or something and they can just grad your ass whenever its convienient for them. Overall guys are butt-faces. Especially to girls as pretty as you.. They need to get over themselves. Once Joren’s gone, they’re going to be messing with you twice as much, show ‘em who’s boss. I hate to see people pushing you around!! Stand up for yourself girl!! (PS- Joren’s a great guy and he cares about you. He’s the only boyfriend you’ve ever had that isn’t using you (no offens, you have fine taste in men, they’re just asses when noone’s looking)) I love you, do what’s best (I know you can do it, ;])’

 I completely agree with my bff Kyle / Chloe’.  They treat me like shit. It’s like they don’t think we girls have any feelings. Except for Joren. He’s the only guy who seems to give a shit about anyone. He’s not selfish like all of my other guy friends.

Damn. I can’t shake the fact that Joren keeps worrying about me. I don’t want to make him worry, yet it makes me feel like someone out there actually cares. The only other person besides him who actually cares about me would have to be Kyle / Chloe’. Even my parents…they just don’t understand. And Savannah, she just doesn’t care. At least she acts like she listens. I guess that helps a little bit.

And you may be asking yourselves”What about Tyler?” Well, Tyler cares, he’s just never there when I need him. And somehow when I tell him my problems, he always turns it around and makes it about him. I don’t know, I guess that’s just life. Totally unfair.

You know what? This guy….we’ll call him Kid. He is my bestest friend. he is always there when I need a big hug. He’s like my own personal Teddy Bear. I love him!!!!!  : )  (PS- he has a sexy bod.)