Well, last night I was on the phone with Joren. And we were just talking about random things, like you know. And I couldn’t help but think that we have such chemistry. Like we totally understand each other. It’s kind of ironic because nobody understands me. So, Yeah. And you probably already know that Joren will be going to high school next year. Which is gonna completely suck for me because I’m not gonna get to see him that much. And I really don’t want to break up with him. I mean I really want this to work.

 He’s actually the first boyfriend I’ve had that knows where I’m coming from. All of the others were just like “whatever” or “sure?” Joren is just so…..ugh, there’s not even words to describe how perfect he is. Some people say that when I’m with him, I don’t really act like I like him. But the truth is, I really do. I mean, it’s just I’ve had my heart broken before so I’m really protective of my feelings. But I’m starting to let my guard down a little. But I really do like Joren. I mean……. I love him. And not just that best friend kind of love or that boyfriend/girlfriend kind of love. I mean the actual definition of love. I mean it’s hard to actually say you love someone, when the word love has been thrown around so much. It’s hard to know what type of love they mean. I really think Joren is the one. That’s why I don’t just want to break up with him just because he’s going to high school. It’s just one year. I think we can survive that. I’m just worried about what will happen in high school when I’m not there. Like what if he finds someone that’s better than me. I just really want to be with him, ya know. God, I love him so much. Words can not express what I feel when I’m with him. The thing about him that I like the most, is that he doesn’t care what other people think of him. Like most of my friends, they think he’s weird and that his hair is too long. But they haven’t seen the other side of him. You have to get to know him before you can judge him. He’s like a pie. Hard cover on the outside, but soft on the inside.(corny much?) Anyway, I feel like I’ve know Joren for my whole life. Even though we met through my “friend” Deven. So..yeah. The only thing that bugs me is the fact that he doesn’t wnat me to get a tattoo. I really want one, but he says they don’t look good on girls. So I don’t know what to do about that, but I’m still pretty set on getting a tattoo. I’ll just talk to him more about it. Well, so yeah. Have you guys/girls ever heard someone say that they love someone/something with all their heart. That’s impossible because chances are they also love something/someone else too. So they can’t really love ou with all of their heart. but if they love you with half of their heart and you love them back with half of your heart, then you make one big heart full of LOVE. Sorry, I just thought I’d get my thoughts out there. So…yeah, that’s all I have to say for right this moment. I’m sure I’ll be back with more exciting news. So I’ll catch up with you people later. World Peace.

                                              -Lauren