Great question! I’m still alive. A lot has happened since… *checks date of last post* July 22 XD… wow I really let it run on for a long time.
So mostly I’ve just been working. I’m sad to say I really have like no life at all anymore. Most of the time when I’m not working I’m sleeping or sick. Too much work has made me ill very often. I’ve gone through a ton of colds by now, a respiratory infection, a few stomach viruses but some how I’m still kicking! Joe has forced me on to my iron pills which I’m now taking (almost) daily to combat my anemia issue. And starting this week we’re going on a planned diet to increase my vitamin B, A, D and C intake to keep me from being constantly sick. As difficult as things are at the moment with my health I’ve accepted the fact that I need to actually care about my health in order to get myself back on track with everything.
I have a lot of backdated stuff I’d still like to post. A few fun pictures of stuff… and even a few video’s XD. Just know I’m not dead and I’ll be trying to get better and find energy to update AND yes, even work on DS a little *coughshutupkaicough*. Peace

Really nothing new. Working as usually. Progress on everything is slow… but still progressing! Can’t complain I suppose. Some how I can’t sleep right now soooo I figured I’d waste time here till I’m sleepy.
Yay, I have pictures to post! Pictures are always fun ^^.
I’d been meaning to post up this one of Kiwi in the shower for quite some time now… cause he’s all ugly looking and cute when he’s wet XDDD.

BIG BEAK!!! Seriously, smaller than a parakeet but has a much larger beak. ?????????????

Annnnnd I said I was drawing… So here’s my proof:

Alas, I have no scanner right now… So I had to take a crappy looking picture and try to adjust the contrast in photoshop so it could actually be visible instead of washed-out looking. I feel so helpless without my usual array of computer necessities.. such as an effen scanner… I’d love to redraw this, then scan it and clean it in photoshop and maybe splash some color on… but no, I fail right now. And It’ll be MONTHS before I can afford my Cintiq tablet… On top of that stupid Joe went and spent/loaned about $200 of the $350 I had saved. I should have known better than to let him hold on to my money… *sigh*
Drawing BTW is inspired from an image I saw somewhere of 176BIZ last week. No idea which member it is. I managed to draw a small scale draft of the basic pose and some key clothing points. The image I had though was REALLY tiny so no idea how accurate it is to the actual photograph. I then made this larger sketch based off of my small draft (which is hiding under my headphones on the right). I should try and look for the original image in a larger version to see how it compares… too lazy though… I hate scan sites T-T.

Yay! Picture time is over!
Yeah, stupid and short *just like me*

Well it’s been a rough week… but I’m feeling a lot better. I think I’ve been making some small amount of progress this week which has improved my mood overall.
I ended up working like 7 days in a row, Friday through Thursday, and I think I’ve become sick again because of it. I have a cold or something that has been causing my head to be so clogged up I have such a headache. I did get like one hour of overtime in though so I should be getting another good paycheck next week. Can’t wait XD. So updates on progress:

1. Drop like 15 lbs. progress -
Well since I’ve been working so much I’ve been extremely active… not to mention I’m so worn out I don’t have much of an appetite. I can list everything I’ve eaten and the amount over the past week because it really hasn’t been much at all. I’ve now gone down like 2 lbs. I’m sure I won’t keep up 2 lbs a week but if I can lose like 1 lb a week I think it would be a healthy enough amount in a healthy amount of time…. so like 4-5 lbs a month… so in like 3 months I should be good XD. I know if I drop weight to fast (like my 20lbs in Japan) it’ll just come right back. Joe and I also bought Wii fit so maybe that’ll do something XD.

2. Draw you Bitch! progress -
So I have been trying to draw a little bit but mainly I haven’t had much time. It’s at least on my mind and I’m trying to take the opportunities to do so. I’ve also started saving up for my Wacom Cintiq tablet ^^. I know if I had one I’d want to use it all the time. Would make drawing a lot easier since I can just do it right on the computer. Ever since I tried out Jess’s I’ve wanted one so bad XD. $999 though, I know I’m gonna find it hard to fork over the money once I’ve saved like $1000 XD. Joe is very supportive of me getting it though, really helps a lot “I want to see you draw more again, I know it make you happy.” I wuv my Joe <3. He’s making me put away an extra $350 for it this month T-T. Very difficult.

3. Photography Progress -
YAY Joe bought me a tripod (finally). I just always procrastinated about buying one. Since my little photo shoot for Christina though I’ve realized it would help a lot. I got too use to photographing mainly myself in my old room that had god-like natural lighting and perfect angles… in which I didn’t need a tripod (would have still helped) so I guess I just never invested in one. BUT now that will no longer be an issue. The thing expands up to 6 feet tall o_O. I also ordered the remote for my Nikon. Will make self portraits much easier and also help with my lighting issues. I still need to invest in a good lighting system but for now if the camera is still mounted and I don’t even have to touch it to take a picture then I can adjust the shutter and iso to compensate for lack of good light without worry of the picture turning out too blurry cause of movement… Yay!

4. Study Study Study progress -
Not much here. I find myself trying to read the packaging of the Hikari fish food at work, that’s really it XD. Again lack of time.

5. Back to the promised lands! progress -
Well there is hope for Japan in the future. If I can just save up some money and hopefully wipe out my credit card bill this year XD. My mother also said once she’s more settled she’d like to help send me back if that’s really what makes me happy. I could still only go for like 3 months at a time bacause of Joe and work (limited leave of absence) but even if I could go back just one more time it’d be worth it to me. I guess we’ll see how that works out.

Again, progress makes me happy ^^. I hate to speak too soon but I do feel like maybe things are starting to turn around a little bit. It’s relieving. Joe has really been helping with a lot of it. His support and encouragement make a big difference, not to mention I need someone to kick me in the ass once and a while to do things XD. Our relationship has been better than ever and that alone makes me really happy :D.

So here’s how it went down. June 10th was Joe and my anniversary so we wanted to go out and do something. Joe had the idea of going to point pleasant in New Jersey to spend the day at the beach. I really wasn’t too thrilled about it… as I’m not that much of an ocean fan strangely enough. But he reassured me if I just trust him we’ll have a good time. Sooo I went along with his stupid beach idea and sat in the car for like 40 minutes before I realized it didn’t seem like we were getting any closer to any type of shore. I was actually quite annoyed XD. Like 10 minutes later we turn into a parking lot in front of a store called “Bird Paradise”.
Just so happened that Joe was actually paying attention to the things I had been googleing over the past 2 weeks. I was considering getting a lovebird or a parrotlet as a little companion since we can’t have a dog or a cat… and while I love my fish and hamsters they’re just not all that into spending time with me XD. Sooo I was doing lots of research and had found the place (bird paradise) in NJ that sold hand fed parrotlets and I bookmarked the site. Stupid Joe had to go and surprise me with a trip to the store to pick out my new feathered baby ^^.
Holy crap the store was amazing. The store itself is like an acre or two in size and I think the largest on the east coast. You’re able to go into the “bird rooms” where you can pick out a bird and bring it into the lounge to play and decide if it’s the bird for you. Even if I wasn’t ready to buy a bird that day I could put a deposit down and visit him whenever I liked till it was time for him to come home. Seriously they must have had at least one of every type of parrot including the cute little parrotlets. We went through a few birds testing out the temperaments till I finally decided on Kiwi (named so simply because he’s small and green). He was the only one that didn’t bite even in the slightest… not like those little things actually hurt that much. We’ve had him 2 weeks now and he’s becoming more friendly everyday.

OMG he’s so cute. about 3-4 months old. He’ll never get more that an ounce or so XD. He’s learned to love head scratches and so far his favorite foods are blueberries and chilli peppers rofl. He’s more of a chicken that a parrotlet, he runs and hides in my hair whenever something scary comes along… like the refrigerator or Joe’s mother XDDDD. He gets his face all messy when he eats and then wipes his beak off on my arm. I’m trying to get him use to joining me in the shower but so far the noise gets him a little freaked out so just a spray bottle bath for now.

Today Christina came over with Lilu (lovebird) and Orion (conure) to play with Kiwi. We had like a small bird party XD. Little bastards spilled seed all over the floor and danced around for a few hours XDD.

He seemed to get along best with Lilu… probably because she’s not so big compared to Orion. She like took over his cage later on. He was doing these funny little territorial dances at her at first XDDD. He’d lift his wings and bob his head while making a car alarm sound lmao. She seemed unimpressed so he gave up after a while and just hid in his hut.

Over all fun day. I must have more bird parties, very entertaining.

I’m sure Kiwi will continue to dominate my blog with stupid cute pictures from here on every time he learns or does something new. *sigh* ah well. I think I’ll be good on the animals for a while (hopefully) unless I decide to get to get him a little girlfriend in the future…. *cough*

BTW Ayabie concert effen ruled <3.

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A while since I’ve updated anything… or even finished converting to wordpress for that matter XD. Work has some how taken over most of my time and life…. but I’m in the process of changing that. Lots of stuff I need to catch up with concerning both my websites and even school T-T. Tons going on in the school department as well. I’m having a hard time getting a loan without a cosigner for this years trip back to Japan…. so frustrating ><…. but I WILL get there!! Even if I have to steal the money XD. Soooo… Commissions anyone? I’m sure I’ll be in over-drive for the next few months looking for ways to make some extra money on the side with commissions. My prices for things are also going to be raised. My time is precious these days and I can’t afford to be “nice” when it comes to pricing my services anymore XD. I do miss the good old days where I had nothing to do except sit on my ass in front of the computer and code/CG/bullshit. Perhaps one day I’ll be able to enjoy that again.
But for now, lots of work to be done. Here is my current list of things to do (in no particular order):

1. Finish version 11 of Deadeyes-star.com
2. Finish existing web commissions and make room for others.
3. Complete wordpress setup for blog.
4. Revamp Endless-seasons.com

Sort list, but within each of those tasks are much longer to-do lists. I’m hoping in the next couple of months I can knock most of this out. We’ll see how it goes ^^.

sooo, we all went to the cherry blossom festival on saturday. was a hell of a lot better then last year T-T. we actually did stuff OMG! and i got a cute little crane made out of sugar ^^. i shall try not to eat him o.o

and by some manner of extreme luck i managed to finish the kimonos for liz and I. they turned out prettyful ^^. liz took pictures but i forgot to bring my camera unfortunatly, so i plan on going back this week to just take pictures of the flowers. liz and i will probably set up a little photoshoot thingy with the kimonos because they turned out so awesome O_o. i spent about 3-4 hours on each kimono, not including the obi…and not to mention i printed the fabric myself…yes i’m very proud this year. Oh yeah, and liz and i made matching kanazashi for the kimonos the night before XD. and now i kinda want to make more kimonos o_o…but alas, i have no reason to do so. anyway, here are pictures liz took:

ugh….so today was pretty interesting. joe and i went to get hair cuts…ahem…we don’t look like joe and manda now. joe looks…like he did in high school..its creepy. and as for me…well….i look like a boy XD. i cut it really short this time and based it around a picture of a japanese boy’s hair cut to begin with. i have funny looking bangs that are in a “v” shape. and then my hair is cut around my ears and long in the back a nd kinda short and spikey on the top…yes its on some serious crack.. but it really doesnt look that bad. she cut it shorter then i would have liked it..but it’ll probably look good in another week or 2 as most of my hair cuts go. joe came up with the perfect example of what i look like…i look like the girl who played peter pan in finding neverland…seriously…its creepy XD. i’m sure if i actually straighten it and style it i’ll look better though lol. eh…its just hair…it’ll grow back…and then i can make it into something else fucked up..weeeeeee.
we also hung out with shono today finally. we haven’t seen him in a while. we kinda just hung out and then went to eat at outback with joe parents (again…so we could steal the easy pass…). amazingly shono didn’t eat like 3 lbs of food this time XD. he lives in brooklyn now so joe drove him to his bus stop…after playing kendo….XD. i should have gotten a picture of it. shono won… but only because joe fell into shono’s boken and hurt his thumb…and then complained of the pain and stoped playing lol. big freaken baby. but yeah, today was fun. i needed it.

hummm…soooo yesterday joe and i went out to eat at the rainforest cafe XD. hes never been there before so it was worth a try, and was kind of a nice change from the usual crap around here…yeah we needed a change….and i wanted coconut chicken with coconut and curry sauce…*drools* it was my first real meal since being sick…wonderful…after dinner we travled the mall, going into random stores. i ended up getting a few new lip rings, and i bought a game (radiata stories) which i’ve been playing non-stop. and joe bought a new hoodie (weeeeeeee). then we snuck back into my house, hopeing not to disturbe my intoxicated mother, with much success.
thennnn today i did a ton of cleaning….and my room is sexified now. and i decided to check the scale today and i’ve lost a total of 9 lbs since starting my diet a month ago XD. its slow progress perhaps…but still progress…and now i’m getting into doing the whole exersize thing…which isn’t very much fun….but works. and if it works i guess i can’t complain :P…i certainly can’t go on feeling like a fat ass….13 more lbs to go and i’m back at normal weight (hooray). i’ve stuck myself with having a bunch of light snacks all day and one main meal (dinner) of whatever the hell i want, plus some sort of effective physical activity for like and hour or 2 three times a week…and i cut all the sugar out of my tea…cause im drinking like crazy…and sugar es bad. and i think i found myself a nice combination that works. i guess we’ll see in a few months if i’m posing in my underwear yet or not XD.
and tomorrow is the D’espairsRay concert ^^. weeeeeeee…finally i’m getting out and doing something like a normal human being. i’m hoping it’ll make me feel better…just to get out…and stop thinking about other things =.= i will probably return home in pieces and bleeding everywhere..but thats fine…just as long as i don’t get aids…and hey, maybe i’ll get to touch hizumi’s ass XD. that would be interesting…
eh, so over all i’m kinda feeling a lot better. like i’m becoming myself again or something. i use to like who i was…even though i was quite alone…i still felt good. so i guess i’m trying to get that back, and i shouldn’t really care so much about other people as i should myself at the moment. ha, i know i’m awesome…i shouldn’t need anyone else to feel it.

eh today sucked again. i had to go to the dentist before work..had to get a filling redone. and then i went to work all numbed up..and i couldn’t talk and everyone was making fun of me .
lol i guess it could have been worse. just made the day feel very very long.

yeah…so the holidays are almost here….and i have a ton of shopping to get done. got a few things for joe, and something for liz….and then i just have to take care of jess, andrew, my mother, and a few other odds and ends. ha, and i don’t know what to get anyone …..and my credit card bill is only getting larger lol.

i really can’t wait till christmas though. joe and i are going to his aunts house upstate…i see it as a type of vacation….and any time away from my mother is like a vacation….gives me time to relax and not have anything to worry about, so i’m glad i’ll get to enjoy the holidays this year and we might get to stay over with jess on the 23rd which would be nice so we can see her and andrew and exchange gifts and stuff. i hope so bad this year will go well…i could use it lol.

yeah so i’m really tired now…and bord…so ima go lay down now and try to relax.

blessed be.

It’s another kitty update yay!!!…aha as if no one’s getting sick of it already…of course they’re not ^^,  the kitties are too cute XD! soooo i took a few new pictures of them cause i was all bored and stuff and i guess i can post up the official names i’ve given them ^^…of course i’m sure anyone who takes them will probably rename them…for now these are the names:

Origami:

my cute little white kitty with black moo cow spots. shes the most independent of the group. she likes climbing stuff especially curtains ><. shes also the quietest and the runt of the litter, but a very good eater ^^. she has such sad little eyes that look like something from a super dollfie XD.

Edge:

My cute little black and white kitty, the only male. named Edge by joe cause of the cute little white spot along the edge of his ear ^^. hes definitly the loudest and fatest of the group. he cries for everything and is kind of a picky eater. he likes sleeping a lot, lol would definitly make a very good house cat. hes very sweet though and likes lots of attention. he likes playing around in the litter box and making a mess.

Sundae:

named so because she reminds me of a little chocolate covered kitty…like a hot fudge sundae XD. shes my little tiger kitty. very energetic, loves playing all the time. my personal little baby, shes such a mommy’s kitty. loves attention all the time and hates being left alone. enjoys bitting the other kitties, shes a bit of a bully but still very sweet and VERY entertaining lol. my personal favorite that i’m hoping i’ll get to keep ^^.

yay, and those are the kitties *nods*. awwww too cute ^^, i’m definitly becoming one of those people obsessed with their cats XD. but they’re so cute and i don’t know for how much longer i’ll get to have them so i’m enjoying it while i still can ^^. i really do hope i get to keep sundae…if not honestly i think i just might make the decision to let the lady that lives down stairs have her if i can’t, at least then she’ll be close by and i can check up on her a lot easier..but still, lets hope i get to keep her! lol ok…i’m done with my sad obsession over the kitties. blessed be!