random pictures taken over the past few days at like 4 am in the morning…dunno…i just get bored…ha.

In PJ’s:

Scary Makup Pictures:

urgh…its late and i’m bored…and i never post entries much anymore…so here ya go. umm…sooo not much has been up really…except i’ve somehow been really busy lately. i’ve been out just about everyday o_o that so odd for me. i’ve also started on a diet that so far i’ve been sticking to for at least a week…which for me is amazing, as well as the great amounts of exercise i’ve been sure to get at least every other day. ha, i must be feeling better or something. i admit i’ve been slightly optimistic as of late, lol probably due to the fact that i try to get out as much as possible doing something either productive or just having fun. i hang out with shono a lot now, hes always so much fun to be around XD. and recently i met up with my friend justin. i’ve known him online for…i don’t know how long lol. so it was about time we met. we went into manhattan to see the BODIES exhibit (http://www.bodiestheexhibition.com/bodies.html). i must admit…as much of a strong stomach as i have for graphic images, surgery, pictures of dead people etc. i was quite taken back by everything in this exhibit. it was educational and artistic all at once…and quite creepy…it made parts of my body actually hurt o_o just from looking at things. it was amazing though. i want to take everyone to see it T-T…but no one will go with me. damn you all. why is everone so afraid of dead bodies! anyway…so yeah, we had fun. i dragged him into jasmart and threw jrock at him…couldn’t resist XD. its just something i must to with people not yet exposed to such things. its like “hehehehe fresh meat! let the corruption begin!”…well maybe not so sadistic…but still. and we got lost in china town…and walked about 3 miles getting unlost. my legs are still hurting honestly lol. we met up with shono later and in an odd coincidence justin and shono knew eachother o-o…strangeness. i feel like these things mean something. yet i have no idea what the would mean really lol.

ah…so regardless of my new buzzing social life i’ve still been a little depressed lately…i dunno…the past 3 days have just been hell. i dont know what up with everything going wrong. i had to go into brooklyn a few days ago to get my military id made up. i had a terrible morning for the most part. i just woke up feeling horrible and it was crappy out and i got all stessed out being late for my appointment at the pass office. afterwards i wanted to do something fun to kind of change my mood, so i called up jess, andrew, and shono being that they all live in brooklyn. andrew was working at the time, but jess was kinda free so we were going to go over to her dorm and hang out since we really haven’t seen her or andrew in a while..and i think jess is there all alone at the moment…anyway, so we called shono to invite him too. when we went to meet him he changed his mind suddenly and said he had other things to do with someone else later on…i kind felt like crap after that. kinda felt like he was mad at me for some reason *sigh* then as we were on the way to see jess she calls and cancels as well ;_;. sooo…nothing seemed to work out well…so i just went home…so much for my day in brooklyn. i really hate brooklyn now lol. sooo then the next day i was going to do laundry at joes house cause i had a good 3 months worth sitting in my room. i thought it would be a nice day, like we would spend the day at his house doing laundry in our pajamas playing video games XD…but….lots of things got screwed up…and we ended up argueing…like one of the worst arguments ever. i don’t think i had ever gotten so mad at him, i was actually throwing things…and broke a lot of stuff. we didn’t talk for most of the day. then my mother decided to start with her drinking and with me not having any place to go to get away from her before it got bad an argument started with her as well. i did way too much yelling that day. thankfully i got a phone call from joe that night and we had a good talk, things seem fine now. i worry sometimes that we have far too many problems…but maybe everyone’s relationship is like that. i dunno. i just hope things start to get better. today sucked too simply because my mother started with me again at 12:30 at night. its enough to ruin anyones day. it was right after i went out to get her mothers day gift too. i feel like not giving her anything now. *Sigh* i dunno…i’m still waiting for a letter from school to see if i was accepted, its driving me crazy…if i’m not…then i’m fucking going to japan. the exchange program is about as much as i would be paying for FIT anyway. i wish i could take some kind of action in either direction right now, oh well. enough ranting for tonight! i’m off to bed.

soooo yesterday i went back to the botanical gardens with shono. i didn’t get a chance to take pictures of the pretty trees and stuff when i was there for the festival because i forgot my camera T-T. yes…was a very important thing to remember lol but i didn’t. BUT i took a bunch of pretty ones yesterday ^^. thankfully it was a very nice day out and the flowers weren’t dead yet. actually it was a nice time for the trees, the petals were starting to fall off so they would fall and drift in the wind ^^ and the ground was pink from all the petals…was so pretty!! and it wasn’t crowded like it was at the festival, yay! we ate cupcakes under one of the sakura trees and took stupid pictures XD. then we went walking around looking for the pond with the giant koi fish in it but they were starting to close the park early so we didn’t get much of a chance to look -.- soooo after the gardens we took a train into manhattan…and ate all day o_o i think he draged me to just about every good food place near 8th street XD. the food was good….but i got so full lol. i was so tired after all that walking and eating, i actually fell asleep on the ferry going home XD. lol lucky someone was nice enough to wake me up. oh yeah, and while traveling on my own…i was hit on by so many people o_o…it was kind of creepy…like 6 different people. i guess with joe not around and me all alone people take the opportunity to approach me. and to think all this time i thought i just looked too scary for people to approach me. i am sadly mistaken….i blame it on the skirt i wore…it wasn’t short or anything (to my knees), just cute…i attract pedophiles LOL. anyway, pictures of stuff!!

pictures of the gardens:

pictures i took of shono: *sigh* he will probably hate me for posting these XD.

(to make it fair) pictures shono took of me: *sigh* i r not a model.

sooo, we all went to the cherry blossom festival on saturday. was a hell of a lot better then last year T-T. we actually did stuff OMG! and i got a cute little crane made out of sugar ^^. i shall try not to eat him o.o

and by some manner of extreme luck i managed to finish the kimonos for liz and I. they turned out prettyful ^^. liz took pictures but i forgot to bring my camera unfortunatly, so i plan on going back this week to just take pictures of the flowers. liz and i will probably set up a little photoshoot thingy with the kimonos because they turned out so awesome O_o. i spent about 3-4 hours on each kimono, not including the obi…and not to mention i printed the fabric myself…yes i’m very proud this year. Oh yeah, and liz and i made matching kanazashi for the kimonos the night before XD. and now i kinda want to make more kimonos o_o…but alas, i have no reason to do so. anyway, here are pictures liz took: