ok…so i’m having a very bad day today…

i woke up in terrible pain from the lower right side of my mouth…no idea wth is wrong with it…so i stagger downstairs to get some ice only to find the cats had knocked the bird cage over…and i had to clean it up while holding and icepack to my face and trying to fend off the cats that were trying to roll around in the mess. then i called my mother and had her set up an emergency appointment for me to go see the doctor again cause the pain was just too much. went to the doctor, he said everything looked fine and i don’t have dry socket thank god, but the stitches were probably too tight and causing the gum to irritate and swell and rip itself….so he removed them…all of them. my gums were healed enough on the inside that it was ok to take the stitches out but the outside still has a great deal of healing to do….i now have 4 gapping bloody holes in my mouth…and i’m constantly tasting blood which is making me feel very sick to my stomach. so i get home and discover i had one pain killer left till i get a refill later on tonight. i took it and called out of work today and tried calling joe a million times who never hears his phone. i finally gave up…and he called me later on at eleven. he was suppose to come over and “spend the day with me” after doing a few things for his dad. i was hungry…but decided to wait till he got to my house to cook something…so i just went upstairs to lay down while i waited for him…and hour later i fell asleep cause of the pain killer…and 3 hours later i woke up at a quarter after 3 and gave joe a call to see where the hell he is….turns out he blew me off to go to the movies and didn’t bother calling to let me know…needless to say that didn’t help my mood any….

so yeah….today pretty much was just a very sucky day…i wish i could go back to sleep…but my painkiller is wearing off and i can’t sleep with pain. thankfully my mother is getting home in like an hour so i can take it and pass out again.

on a lighter note, i found a really cute website that brought a little bit of joy to my day….cause i love cute things…..

http://www.anikaos.com

yes this is where i’m getting all the stupid little kaoani’s….but they’re so cute!!! and as of today everyone has their own designated kaoani set.

me:

Joe:

me and joe:

Liz:

Jess:

Andrew:

Andrea:

not sure about steve, casey or ant. lol i guess they could pick their own if they really wanted to XD.

yeah i’m done being stupid now…blessed be!

issue #1: my surgery

ok! sooo much to talk about. just got the surgery for my wisdom teeth yesterday…yay…it wasn’t as bad as i thought it would be though which is good XD. had to go in for 9 am. the stuff they were hooking me up to was kinda scary o_o. and the doctor was very creepy. but once i got that first shot of sodium penethol i went right out…and don’t remember a thing till someone was calling my name and i woke up feeling like not even a second had gone by. they walked me to the recovery room where i got to see my mother and joe ^^ and they were laughing at the way i was trying to talk cause my mouth was all stuffed with cotton and i was numbed up. the doctor said there were no complications with my surgery and my teeth came out easily with no difficulties and damage ^^. so yeah, after that i kinda couldn’t wait to get home. the doctor gave me a prescription for vicadin and an antibiotic. i wasn’t in any pain at all though…till the novicain wore off…and then…the pain was terribly unbearable…and i had to wait till my mother got back from doing laundry and picking up my prescription to take anything for the pain. in the mean time joe made me mashed potatoes to eat being that i need something in my stomach to take the pills with…or i’ll get sick. ha…eating in that much pain and with a mouth full of cotton is extreamly difficult. and anything i eat i have to swallow whole. no chewing allowed. so i ate and my mother came home and i took my pills and all was well. so I’ve basically been sleeping a lot and eating very little…i can see why the doctor said i might lose as much as 10lbs in the next 2 weeks or so…between how my mouth feels and the medication i really don’t feel like eating at all…i kinda just have to though XD. ah….SO i wanted to take some scary pictures of how my mouth looks right now..but its very bloody and the stitches are creepy and you can see a back hole in the back of my mouth on one side…might be too gory…and i have bruises around my face from whatever the doctor was doing during the surgery to keep my mouth open…but yeah…i don’t really want anyone seeing me like that XD…..so i took a few pictures of my left arm which has a huge bruise on it left by the IV they stuck in me. it hurts like a bitch o_o:

ha…yeah that’ll be there a while….

issue # 2: new art stuff!

I forgot to post up the new stuff i did a few days ago. work has given me lots of time to draw and motivates me to cg whenever i get the chance. i think I’m getting a lot better with my cg work now ^^. i have a new commission to do for someone and at least 2 or 3 other drawings i’m working on now that I’m hoping to color within the next 2 weeks. eh i’m just happy i’m being productive ^^.

Full View please ^^

issue # 3: the send manda to japan fund

i have recently been invited to go on a 2 week trip to japan with liz, rachel and one of rachels friends during the summer…needless to say i really really want to go! this trip would replace my otakon trip and would be a late 20th birthday present for me. but money is indeed and issue. so i am graciously asking my friends, fans, people who like me, whatever to contribute to my trip. i’m offering commissions, sewing projects, anything that is in my power to do in order to raise money T-T. and if i do get the money to go i will happily accept a list from anyone who has contributed who wants me to pick up something for them while i’m there. i’d need you to give me your own spending money for that of course (i promise i won’t lose it or spend it on myself XD) but i’d be happy to do it ^^. honestly at this point i do have enough money to go…but its the little i was able to save up for starting college…and i’m trying so hard not to give into temptation and use it T-T. so again..art commissions, sewing commissions, photography, web design, anything! every little bit counts! and no i’m not asking for handouts nor will i accept them. please contact me if you’d like to help ^^.

blessed be!

ok so i’m just wasting some time before work…weeeeeeee.

soooo…work is very boring…i do the register…very boring. i sit there and play psp and bullshit with this kid that works there named nick…hes really fucking funny, and very gay even though hes straight. my manager doesn’t really give a fuck what we do there as long as we do whatever we’re suppose to do…so i guess its really not all that bad… just very boring. they’re still hiring if anyone wants a job *nudge nudge*. hehehe

annnddddd….i took pictures of me being cute..cause i was bored as usual. and i like looking cute.. weeeee:

yes indeed i am and extremely big camera whore…and proud of it :P. muahahahahahaha!

and i need a hair cut…seriously never though i would say that truthfully but i do…must be short again ><. fucking hair…and when the blue & purpleness comes out i think i’m going to put pink in my hair o_o….maybe….i’m not much of a pink person….but i guess thats kinda the point. and i can’t really think of any other color i would look good with. hha! and we’re going to dye joes hair too, muahahahahahahahahahaa!!!!! evil hair fun…*sigh* i’m on crack right now cause i’m so tired…and i should start heading off to work  now….arg…

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