yesterday nite just finish chatting with my fren at 1am…he ask me go to sleep coz i need to wake up earlier the next day…i told him i couldnt sleep….he answer me back ‘how u gonna sleep if u r not lying on the bed?’.. i think of what he said…quite true…then i decided to sleep…..it’s already 2.30am..i cant close my eyes yet….slowly…..my tears began to drop….hehe….i really hate when i’m alone…coz i will think of my past….that’s y i like to waste my time surfing the net till 5am or do something till i really damn tired n yawn  for thousand times…till i really really really felt tired…then i only go to bed…coz it make me more easy to sleep….if not i wont be sleeping….i will think of all those nonsense…cry…hahaha…gosh….i really hate to b alone….hmm…i know i have to learn to let go thing….. last time i use to do meditation….to learn how to let thing go…..yeah..it really help me alot….at least i’m getting better than last time…..i still remember…last time i only slept for 2hour 1 day…..gosh…kinda crazy rite? (mayb not for some ppl,but kinda crazy for me) thank god….i’m getting better now….but i still haunt by my past…..hurm….i guess it gonna ‘haunt’ me forever….hehe…. i really hope n wish 1day someone could remove the ‘past’ out of my brain….perhaps….god? LOL……

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