hmm, i find myself thinking about Cookie nearly nonstoply. I just can’t wait until I can see him before school, after 3rd, 4th hour and after school in all. I can’t believe he is graduating in all but 3 days!!! :[ He is soooo sweet, I just wish I could see him more. I learned something interesting about him, he’s actually only 9 months older than me. Hell, that’s nothing. His birthday is March 4th (if I remember correctly). *sigh* i don’t get to see him for another 15 minutes… 15 WHOLE minutes, i feel like I’m just staring at the clock waiting for it to change…

We don’t even ride the same bus, although we do live within  20-minute walking distance from eachother.

I haven’t told my parents about him yet. If I do, they’re going to overreact because he’s in 8th grade (soon to be highschooler). I’m pretty much allowed to hang out with anyone I want whenever I want. Even if it’s some 16 year-old guy that I “supposedly” am friends with, I’m free to do as I choose. But as soon as any boy is my “boyfriend” my parents label him off. They’re going to assume we’re off doing something stupid, and they won’t let me hang out with him in the neighborhood, at parties, or at the mall. Therefor I need to make Cookie seem like nothing more than a friend, otherwise, we are doomed to a most boring love life…

Me, him, Lauren and her boyfriend Joren will probably spend a lot of time at the mall with eachother. I hope so, I’m going to miss Cookie incredibly unless I seem him everyday, all day. :]

Despite this… I had so much fun with Pumpkin in 3rd hour today. (He even let me wear his jacket!!) hmm, although I like Cookie a lot, I cannot avoid the fact that I am totally, absolutely in love with someone else. :[ I feel like Pumpkin was made for me, and I was made for him. I’d do anything for him, but he’ll never feel the same (as far as Middle School goes)

 I like Cookie a lot, but can I lie and say I love him?? Love takes time to grow, and despite that Pumpkin is so possitively perfect, he’s also fairly unattainable. Cookie is for the here and now, but I have a feeling, Pumpkin is for the long-run.