Uh, i don’t know what to do. Courtney had me convinced I was going to break it off with Cookie, but then when we started talking on AIM, he seemed so sincere, and I learned some about him, and despite what Courtney says, he seems like an okay person. And, he LIKES me, he’s already planning how we can still go out next year when he graduates. He’s so sweet.

Courtney tells me all these horrible things about him, how he’s a player, and that he’s scum and how I shouldn’t trust him. She says he’s going to cheat on me and that he’ll use me. But he just seems so damn sincere.

On AIM he was telling me stuff like how “he felt different around me” and that “he really liked me” and “he wanted to make it work”. And he told me he loved me again. Is he just telling me what I want to hear?

I trust Courtney’s advice a lot, but doesn’t everyone deserve a chance? He hasn’t given me a reason not to trust him.

In spite of this, my sister (technically half-sister) Diana graduated last night. I couldn’t go to the graduation (bummer) but my dad took some good pictures. I’ll put them up here when I get a chance.

But seriously with this whole Cookie thing I could use some advice. Hello? Is there anyone out there?

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That’s Diana in the middle, my other half sister jessica is to the left and thats my dad on the right

that’s right. you heard me correctly. Supposedly, i am no longer single. but, here’s the weird thing, i’m with neither pumpkin, nor butter. Insanity right?? Well, here’s the whole story.

Today me and a bunch of friends (it was for the school’s band trip) went to this waterpark. I’d always known about my friend Kyle’s best friend… well… we’ll call him ‘Cookie’. So Kyle introduces us, and sometime about half way through the day, Cookie literaly kidnaps me from my buddies. Later, he asks me out.

I find it hard to believe, I mean we’ve just met. Apparently Kyle’s told him a lot about me. I always thought Cookie was cute, and he’s really funny, and I think if we got to know each other a little better, we’d find we have a lot in common. But, I’ve never had an actual conversation with him before today. And I’ve been single for so long, I actually wonder, hell, is this a joke? But he’s texted me twice and called a few times… he also imed me. And, just a couple minutes ago, he told me he loved me. why go through that if he wasn’t for real??

But anyways, I said yes. (I just couldn’t say no, he looked so adorable when he asked) I figure, I’ll give it until the end of the school year. If we click, hell, we’ll stay together a while longer. If we realize we have nothing in common, we split. Seems simple right?

It seems wrong. I am so in love with Pumpkin, and then there’s Butter…

my friend says Cookie’s a player, and that maybe he’s not such a good boyfriend. but i don’t know what to do. he’s about a year and a half older than me,

any help here??