I don’t know what I was expecting. I guess I was expecting a scene from a movie or something. But I guess in relaity stuff like that NEVER happens.

I saw him walking to 2nd hour with Nick, and I turned down the hall that lead to my class. I really don’t know what I was thinking was /going/ to happen. I kind of wanted him to run over and just start talking to me. I know that’s stupid… really stupid the more I think about it. but I don’t know, I guess I just set myself some kind of standards. He didn’t even wave, God, I was just crushed. I mean he’s really not the type to scream out your name and wave around his arms even if he /does/ like you, but still maybe even just a little nod so that I knew he at least noticed me, or looked my way or something. But he just kept walking.

God.

Emotional turmoil.

My friend got back from the Hospital today. I missed her a lot, and we played a long overdue prank on another friend of ours. xD It was a good one too.

Oh, and I don’t think TJ hates me anymore, which really doesn’t matter to me right now. I mean, I’ll probably care a lot tomorrow, but today, I don’t know, I think I was just adjusting to him ignoring me and stuff, and then he waits for me after 4th hour and hugs me and then hugs me again after school. Lauren’s right, men are so confusing.

Ari was absent today. I don’t know why everyone thinks I care so much. I mean I do, I’d be a scrooge not to. But it’s not like the end of the world because he’s sick or anything. Gosh, people are stupid sometimes, XP

Hmm, a lot happened in one day. It really did. That’s quite interesting, because someday’s nothing happens at all.

Here’s a random thought for ya. What makes one day different from another? I mean the sun comes up and goes down the same every day. And it’s the same people, and the same place and generally the same situations.What can make one day, according to these circumstances, amazing and another “the worst day of your life”. I mean what is it? Really, I’d like to know. I really would. What make today any different from yesterday? Or what makes yesterday different from tomorrow? What makes 2 years from now any different than this exact moment?

I think it has less to do with people changing and more to do with ourselves changing. I think it has to do with ourselves and how we grow and how we act. When you really think about it, it all comes down to us, and whether we’ve got the guts or not to keep going.