I’m so stupid for liking a guy like “him”. I mean he’s into cheerleaders. :/

My friends say it’s totally naturally. He has that “attainable” statues, like if I really tried I could probably get him. And he really is decently cute. He has the most gorgeous silver-brown eyes. It’s too dangerous to release his name on the internet. What a disaster /that/ could turn into. He was being so sweet today. We made a lot of eye contact and he went to leave the classroom, and he /looked back at me/ and smiled. *dreamy*

He’s so funny too. I’ve liked him for a few weeks now, just never really got around to blogging about him. Too much Ari drama. Oh, and much to contrary belief, “he” is not Ari.

Now he’s confusing for you. I mean REALLY comfusing. He’ll smile at me and talk and flirt his brains out, but then the next day he’ll ignore me till I want to go cry in a corner somewhere. Today we looked at each other. I mean just /looked/ at each other, square in the eye for at least a mintue. I mean that’s a whole 60 seconds. SIXTY SECONDS! And I look at Celeste and she smiles because she knows I like him, and I had just cried to her hopelessly a few minutes before saying /oh I don’t know if he likes me/ and /oh why doesn’t he ask me out?/ and /we’d look so cute together/. Sometimes it feels good to just shoot the poop (I got that from ‘The Catcher in The Rye’) with good ol’ Celeste sometimes. Because most of the time she just nods along and listens. Well maybe she’s not really listening. Maybe she’s wondering why the smoothies at lunch are so expensive or why that cloud passing by looks like a kitten. But at least she pretends to listen. And if she wants to laugh, she holds it in for at least a minute. Which I really appreciate anyways.

It’s sad I’ve had to make a sequel to my lengthy Ari post…

Okay, today three girls came up to me and said they liked him. THREE. Supposedly it’s “for all the right reasons” but I just happen to be very skeptical. I usually am, about everything. But since Ari’s my best friend I am overly skeptical about chicks liking him just because he’s sweet (which he is but which is absolutely /not/ why /they/ like him)

I hate to mention any names, especially the one that concerns me most. She says she doesn’t like him anymore, but she says a lot of things. I appreciate her asking my permission and all, but it’s not like she can’t get any guy she wants. Why, of all the guys, in the whole school that she /can/ get, she has to go for my best friend? I mean why? They’ve gone out at least 3 times in the past, and it’s never worked out. Sometimes I wonder if he’s only in it for the fame. Sometimes I wodner if she’s only in it, to be in it.

 I realize I talk about these girls that like Ari like another species. But sometimes they are. I always thought guys were hard to figure out, but so are girls. They just act so smooth around him, so nonchalant and swavy and all that. Sometimes I think he doesn’t even notice they’re trying to play that cutesy card. But then again he doesn’t realize much of anything. I could dye my hair red and cut it real short and he probably wouldn’t even give it a second look and just start talking about our language homework or something. He’s funny like that.

I honestly don’t think Ari’s into anyone, not right now anyways. But then again, he totally could be, like I said guys are hard to read too.