Hello, Today I am Mizz Understood

That’s how I feel lately.

My boyfriend keeps saying I’m weird, because of the things I like.

He thinks I’m childish because I listen to Jpop, while one of his main hobbies lately is to make paperplanes.

And if they do fly, he gets all giddy. “Look look! Did you see that!”

I nodd, trying to be as polite as possible, but even sometimes I tire of watching his countless paper creations crash.

But he never tires of my Jpop, why? He never gives it a chance.

Well, he claims him giving it a ‘chance’ was sampling from what he heard brieftly.

But okay, your a male and American, so your not going to like it, but don’t make fun of me for what I like. I don’t even listent to it much anymore, but it still refelcts on me.

Still with the Gackt thing. I thought I got over this years ago, being tormented for likeing Gackt. People think I’m in love with him. I did admit to people that he has a ‘nice body’ with beautiful looks, but if Gackt physical features were a mystery, I would still love him because I fell in love with his music…not neccesairly him. To tell you the truth, I can’t really tell if I like Gackt, because I don’t know him and he’s hard to read.  Personality wise, from what I took in watching interviews and even just from his music it seems like it would be a dream to maybe share interest, but no more. To have Gackt as a good friend would be nice, but I DO NOT believe that I am in love with him.

But if his music were a real…lol. This is making no sense. lol

Anyway, I think people may get confused. When I say I love Gackt, I really am talking about his wounderful music.

Then there is the common question that pops up: How can I enjoy music I don’t understand?

Words really  don’t matter.

Is Rammestein not a popular band to the rockers of America, yet they speak German. This is not weird for my friends to like this band, but for me to like Japanese music makes me and outcast in a way? Not too fair neh?

One of our most famous musicians used no words at all, yet let the music do the talking.

You will have songs that have amazing lyrics, but If that rhythm behind it, is not pleasing, than it will do no good. Forget the words, the first thing people experince from music is it’s sound. From that alone they will determine wheather they like it or not.

But this is a general theory of mine. There are a few songs I think may go against this theory, but for general use it works.

I may not always know what Gackt’s saying, of course there is numerous lyric translations, but  it feels like I do. Something with his musis is different to me, it clicks in my head a new place. I swear I feel his words, I feel emotion in his music. It’s so odd at times, like it’s a drug.

I want to stop now.

I was just meaning to type a max 5 sentence post, but my passion for his music must of taken over. I even sensed myself being defensive in my blog, which I didnt mean to.

-sigh- Just forget this one…

His Dear ,

Cheza Ai

As you may have noticed last week, there was not new Art. That is because my scanner is not working at the moment. It’s hooked to a computer that won’t load so I can’t get to the file even if I did scan it. So, I have to put this section on Haitus. I was trying to think of something to fill in Tuesdays with, a new section, but I’m not sure what to show.  I have been very much into making houses on the Sims! I love the game! Just recently, I bought The Sims 2 Double Deluxe which features Nightlife and Celebration packs included.  So really it was two expansions and the game all for $30? I think I spent at GameStop. We also got Command and Conquer, Red Alert. That’s a pretty neat game, but I myself am more of a Starcraft player, lol.

Lately I’ve gotten that game again too. I remember when my brother and I use to play over our network together, that and Diablo Two. Now, years later, I have been replaying with my boyfriend. We play us against two or three different computers.

I’m glad to say I didn’t lose my Starcraft-iness, lol.

So yes, back to what I was saying the Art is temp. down. I’ll think of something soon, I’ve just been so busy lately.

Well toodles for now,

AixaaaXa

Dreams are so vivid and close sometimes.

But I cannot reach them, I think I’m too short!

Few days I wish to be taller, but that is also another impossible dream.

Sometimes I think they are there to tease most of us, with things we desire but can’t have.

Maybe we are not all suppose to have them, but to believe we can so that we work harder to try and reach something we really can’t have.

Or maybe they are to entertain us, give us escape from the harsh real world.

Yes.

It’s so harsh and I dislike that.

Work to live, live to work. We are not ants.

But we are not ‘luxury living’ household pets either.  Someone has to do the work so others don’t have to.

But that’s not fair right?

Maybe we could take turns?

I want to own my own business…or perhaps a few.

But I’m still too short. . .

for now anyway. (-.^)V

Cheza Ai(z) Tu!

 Mi amoures::

Animals
Bijou *my hamster (^.^)*
Chocolate Chip Frappacino
Dance
Ebay
Felines
Gackt
HelloKitty
IceCream
Jade
Kuromi
Lavender
Mochi
N.O
Ongaku
Pisces
Quentin Tarantino
Rainbows
Snakes
Trampolines
Umbrellas
Vanilla
Warmness
XXI
Yaoi
Zydeco

¡Y tú!!!

¿Te amo, Me amas?
ChezaI

These were doodles I had all over my book so I combined them all together so it was easier. All except for the bunny (that was one I drew from another pic cause it was too cute) were random doodles by me. I usually got sidetracked from even drawing to draw just cute, quick, small pictures. The butterfly and flower were actually suppose to be part of a real picture that I’m still working on that also is part of my shading practice items. “Orenji no Taiyou” is from the name of a song Gackt and Hyde did together for their movie Moonchild that I reallly liked…but it’s really long, lol. The rest is just pure Random. ^.^

Thank you!

ﾟ･:,｡★＼(^-^ )♪ありがと♪( ^-^)/★,｡･:･ﾟ

♡♡♡Cheza♡♡♡

Happy Cybunny Day! Neopians

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The Cybunny Carnival is here!
On this day, the such cute Cybunnies come down from the mountain tops to enjoy their day of celebration and the freed food of mostly any cooked/baked carrots. I ‘love’ the cybunnies myself and wish to have one but they are more rarer of neopets that they don’t offer dailiy. (T.T)

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Someday I shall have one, for I plan to turn ChezAoki into one!

Someday…someday…

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Cheza

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Happy Kougra Day!!

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Having a yellow Kougra, Eien_no_Ai, of course I would celebrate Kougra Day in honor of him! So today Eien and I wanted to just wish every neopian, and their kougras a happy Kougra Day! Kougra’s have always been a favorite neopian species of mine and every Neopets account I’ve ever had included a Kougra.

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I think these are the two I’ve decided between for what I would like to paint him. I love pirates and white tigers…but I’m not sure yet. I’ve probably had/have enough to paint at least one pet but I still trying to figure out distinct personalities for them.

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Of most all the animals, maybe just except the tweetok, I love Kougra themed food because it’s usually cool looking to me and it seems like something yummy I would eat! (^.^)V. Also Kougra themed toys are the cutest! Here are the blocks and I also had a neat Kougra pogo stick I came across one day that I bought for Eien.

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This is a Kougra/Neopets item bought at stores like claire’s. There are baby Kougra door hangers and I think they are too cute also!

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Til the next Neopian holiday!!!

<<<333 Chez&Eien KOI

Here’s a more colorful one I did in earlier time. I use to be in love with Pandas ever since I first seen them @ the zoo! Then I also loved bubbles and tea sets as well. Lol, I used to be really girly, but I think not so much now. I guess I may till love many of the same things, but don’t show it as much…?

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Thank you!

ﾟ･:,｡★＼(^-^ )♪ありがと♪( ^-^)/★,｡･:･ﾟ

♡♡♡Cheza♡♡♡

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Happi Lutari Dai!!!!

Picture by Suta-Raito.com

I just wanted to wish all other Neopians a Happi Lutari Dai because the Lutaris are a favorite species of mine on Neopets. I also love the new Island themed items as well as the new Paintbrush to go along with it. Sadly it’s the most expensive but it is much the worth because I loved the look Of Lutari painted Neopets the most!!! Lutari’s appreared when their mysterious Lutari island first did. Apparently the Lutari’s have a love for bright colorful things as many of the Lutari themed items are bright different colors and decorated in colorful feathers as well. That could be a major reason why I like them alot! (^.^)!

At the moment, I could only dream of an Island Lutari.

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Anyway in celebration here is a list of my favorite Lutari Items.

You can see just how colorful and feathery they are, nee?

Sadly I wanted to show you what my neopets whould look like painted with the Lutari Paintbrush but at this time I believe the paintbrush is not yet available to coulour yet. I searched but did not find anything *yet* but when I do I will probably show you in the furture! Lo Siento!!!!!

Love, ChezaAli

Today I am crying.

I’m crying because I’m worried.

I have no identification and nobody seems to be able to help me. I feel all alone and that life is not for me to live because everytime I think I’m on the right track, something happens.

Now I fear I’m at the worst possible scenario. Without my ssn I can’t get an Id and without and Id, it’s hopless. All I have is me, my dad’s buisness where I sleep in the back on ground, myself, and my boyfriend. He has people but no trasportaion between them. So we might as well be off on an island, instead of just feeling like it.

Is there no help aside from parents for young teens trying to start their life?

Where is the helps for us young adults/teenagers??!

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I had to take a break to calm down. I am calm now.

I’m going to try hard not to worry and do the best I can, that’s all I can think of to do at the moment. I already called and looked up all the rescources I could think of.

Hopefully I am in the hands of good fate, in the end.

{………………………………………………………………………………………………..Cheza….}