One of my favorite things, beside many, is how our streets can be closed for performers to setup. Today I watched people perform ragtime-like music, with a lady singing and people ragtime dancing.

Although I love them, I usually do not stop to watch because I’m use to them being there, they are nothing special anymore. This particular one just happen to catch my eye as well as many others as it drew a fairly large crowd. I could barley see from afar.

I wish I had my camera…

Lately I’ve been feeling down and up.

I got another partime job, now most of my free time should be taken, but I really want to not be stuck in the world so being prepared with two part time jobs will be good, I guess.

This bother worrys me for lost of personal time but I am glad because any extra money is good! (^.^)

Another thing is I don’t feel I have any specialties in anything. I thought I did before but now I’m always being overshadowed by someone better. Now I know there is always going to be someone better, but this person is not only better at everything I have strong points in as well as weak points, but is constantly around, like a constant reminder I’m no good as I thought I might have been. I’ve been quiet about it but it kind of came out when I got abit irritated by him constantly always bragging about being the best. I admit, this person is good…at everything, and for the most part I don’t really even mind. But it’s uncalled for to constatly brag and bring it up, say your the best, and even say your perfect.

Still I cannot say much. If I do, this person will get upset and then I would have to apologize or else we’d be feuding forever.

BUT don’t worry! I’ll find my calling, lol.

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I made a Gia account along time ago but got bored with it. Today I decided to bring it back to life. Right now I’m only enjoying fishing at not much else because I find it a little difficult to get gold, especially with all the itmes costing so much yet the games give you very few points….unlike neopets…lol.

Another site, like neopets—but not as good, is Ichumon. I just joined today too. It’s like neopets but you get and persona (avatar) and can have 10 pets and I’ve seen more. I’ve just ‘hatched’ (yes hatched) my first two pets. They resemble lepords. I named the first, a red boy named Koa then the second a girl name Nalani. I’ll post pictures later thoughh.

That’s all for now, just a random update.

C-U L*ter ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Cheza

Did you know….

Today is name yourself day! (^.^)

When I was younger, I named myself Serena, because I wanted to be Sailormoon. :p I was so young! hehe

But today, I am Michiru, Sailor Neptune! Because Jupiter rules us, and the violin is my favorite instrument! lol

yay!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Michiru(aka SailorNeptune)

I’m really a boy,

who lives in a tree house,

and I like to play Pirates all day!

♥

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Eien

Oh My!!! How could I forget??!!!

I bought a hamster…

about 1 month ago…

It’s ♀ and her name is Bijou.

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I kind of got her on the spur of the moment. I just went into the pet store to look and came out with a hamster. She’s fairly good, likes to nibble on lettuce, and very patience with all the attention it may not always want. For the first week and a half I did not know what to call her. I was too unprepared. Soon, because she was a big dwart hamster and liked to eat, people started naming it Sheila! I was like nooo! It reminded me of the tank from Red vs. Blue, lol. So I quickly came up with what came to my mind first that was cute and suitable. Bijou! I remmebered the cartoon Hamtaro that I use to watch and since she was a girl, I named her after the main girl.

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(”-0)=========================3Cheza

I can’t get a job because I have no transportation.

I can’t get a car because I have no credit.

I need a credit card to earn credit.

I can’t get a card without credit.

???

Life is cinfusing.

Growing up is scary.

This, on top of rent, car payments, car insurance, heath insurance, water, electricity, phone, food, nessecities???!!!

Life seems so impossible and I sometimes don’t think I can do it.

Life is harsh and I try not to be weak, but I get close to it.

I don’t have to worry about all that right at the moment.

Lucky to have no real bills right now, but the thought of it, in my future, it’s a bit frighning.

I don’t want to grow up.

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{{S.O.S}}>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>Cheza.

I went to the zoo today.

I didn’t take any pictures though…

This time, I went simply to just enjoy.

I got to touch two snakes. One was a very pretty rainbow snake. The other was a childrens python. I ♥ snakes!

Then I saw an Emu chasing a Llama. It was weird, but funny. The Emu was crazy how it ran! It darted from side to side really fast. Its body look like each hemisphere of it was trying to go a separate way at once!

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I dunno how to explain it really…

It was like a cartoon…<<there.

-wink-

lol…

now I’m just being ridiculous.

Random Comments….

This is going to be a Random comment Blog now…

hehehe…just kidding.

It’s only fun when ur bored an in the mood.

Well, blah blah blah…the zoo was fun…blah blah love you…. BAIIIII~~IIINNN??!!

Bye

Cheza ♫

I need something to keep me occupied during these boring times I go thorugh.

I remember I use to love making things, so I’m thinking about going back into that. I want to make jewerly and perhaps progress from there. It would be cool if they sold too, I could use the extra money to get my self setteled in a place instead of crashing around…

I also might be going into a side buisness with Trey and I. It’s sales, but not sure on it yet.

I haven’t updated on the shop like I said I would, but not much has changed except for the fact that we sell more variety of things to eat. We still need an expresso machine though. This place is a tourist attraction mostly and forigners are big on expresso from what I observe so it works out, but my ideas have not yet been fully processed.

But as for my hobby, I have ideas like how people make the sweets jewerly collections. Just things like that. I have also though of selling cool funiture from ideas I thouhgt of one night. My dad was heavily into consturction growing up so I think that might be where this comes from. Maybe i’ll put up some blue prints are actual ones I make someday.

As for now it sucks because I proabably will not be able to be as creative as I want until I get setteled in a place with a consistent ride to and from work and ect. Then they madness will begin!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Cheza<3<3<3

PS:: So lately these people have been coming to me for help with their music devices. The one claims to be a pirate and he says I’m a witch, but in a good way. o.O. Well it is fun to pretend sometimes. ^.^V

Last night I watched Gia. It’s been along time since I’ve seen the movies and it’s one of my favorites.

Weakly my eyes teared…even thiking of it…her. I read upon her today and saw for the first time what the real Gia looked like. I think she was beautiful.

I think Gia touches me so much because in ways we are similar.

My childhood was similar to Gia’s life. I could have just about anything I wanted, but when at home, I was alone. It wasn’t always like this…not in the past 5 years or so. But back when…things were crazy…life was crazy like Gia’s. There were other things, things she felt that I could sympathize with. These things I can’t just come out and discuss. In manys ways we were alike personally and I wish I could have known her then. Of course I was not even born when she died, but If I was, and I knew….

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♥Gia and Sandy♥

Today I went to the park.

On the way we stopped at a store to buy bread.

I was upset at first becacuse I was trying to feed the duckies, but the segulls kep stealing it from them.

I do have to say though, on their behalf, that seagulls deseved their food. They fought for it unlike the ducks who gave up. I guess that can be admirable as well as annoying of them.

Eventually I did feed the ducks and manages to get three of them to take it from my hand…which is how I learned ducks don’t hurt when they bite…i think so?

Sadly today was not a good day as it went on. My bff, bf, and I got into a fight.  I was sad because I had to make a decision, tough one. It was who I wanted to spend more time with and usually I guess most people would answer their friends…but they are not in love. And even if at the moment it seems wrong to you,  from an outside pov,  we will learn in the end.

I was given the advice of following what I felt was right at the moment. I’m more that half confident it was the right decision, but not 100%. Instead, I did what I wanted because I believed it was what my heart was telling me what it wanted—to be loved.

People tell me (us) that we are too young to understand what love is. I believe that maybe true for the most part. I believe love takes time to learn and trust. I also believe not many young people have true love beacuse they have not began to learn it or trust it being fagile at first. Either/or they are blindsider by other things more important to them than finding love. Many are too young for the commitment, they are not ready to be tied down because most young people really just want to feel free.

I wasn’t directly looking for love I  guess…but it found me and I wasn’t about to let what I believed to be real and true leave.

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX Cheza & Eien I.T.S.U.M.O

I’m so stuck right now…

I need help and I wish I could ask someone, BUT since I’m a “pisces” e v e r y t h i n g    i s    p e r s o n a l.   -slaps self- Wake out of it Cheza!

All i can say at the moment is I think I may be having ’something’ for ’someone’. I know this isn’t such a big deal but it really is..if you just knew who the ’someone’ was. I mean, even if I did get close to this person…all  I can think of is all the problems I will have. But then again, i’m usually an easy going, flow with the wind, whatever type too.

But I am such a fool. I don’t even know this person well. There is just something about them. They remind me of someone I cared for dear through similar characteristics. I’ve had this sort of thing happen to me before but with…yeah YOU guys know….::.GA*KU*TO.::. V(^0^)V lol Once before an exboyfirend of mine had his smile almost exact and I coulnd’t resist because I love Gackt’s smile. **blush**

But even still, this is a whole new ball game. Neve before…i’m not sure, have I been attracted to a person like this. I’m not even sure if I am attracted anyway.  This is just sad. I can’t even tell how I feel…if i do like them, how will i know if they do?

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO CHEZ愛