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Random Update

by chezkoi:hellokitty.com

I have some pictures I took from Thanksgiving. I haven’t really had time to upload any lately, but I’m trying.

 

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This is just a random picture while trying to take a good picture of myself, full shot, to show what I wore on Thanksgiving. Black, nothing special. It is a Korean Chiffon/Baby doll like dress I got on Ebay sometime back. I also have it in white.

 

Things have been hectic and stressful!

 

Kitties are still getting big thou. Will have to put up some pictures pretty soon.

 

 

Near X-mas I am suppose to be leaving where I am for a few days. I’ll have a computer there so I’ll try to update it then considering I’ll have a lot more time and privacy there. (the odds…)

 

It’s not that I’m being secretive or trying to hide anything from anyone that I write on here. I think I’m smart enough to know what I want to share and what i don’t if I’m posting it on the internet for the world to see, and then some! I just don’t want someone around me asking questions and just being nosy while I do it. Read it later, I don’t care just not over my shoulder or near me at all while I write it. It’s uncomfortable for me, not a secret being hidden from you!

 

 

It’s the internet I’m on…for crying out loud! There are NO secrets here!

 

 

Unless you know….

 

 

 

Ai, Cheza

あぁなつかしい…

by chezkoi:hellokitty.com

I’ve been having many nostalgic feelings lately…

 

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Memories of my past Autums overwhelm my thoughts.

つまんないよ。。。

by chezkoi:hellokitty.com

So, what have I been up too lately?

Watchin ALOT of movies and doing a lot of nothing.

I feel like I’m wasting my time and life. I don’t really have time to myself anymore anyway. It’s not that I’m busy all day, but that I doing something else than what I’d rather be doing but I’m stuck like this for now. I so hope the next year brings better things for me than it has now.

I do really wish to blog more, but I have nothing to say. Nothing goes on much anymore to even bother blogging, nothing excitining anyway. I have nothing to talk about and nothing to show lately. It’s just abunch of nothing. I need more.

I feel there is so manny things I want to do, but I don’t have the time or resources it always seems.

I have been opening up Photoshop again. Many years ago I started fooling around with it and we I eventually became quite nomadic, I had to temporaily give it up. Its been like 4 5 years now? and I feel like an alien to the program. Somethings I did remember, but not as nearly much. I have however learned many new things about the computer since I have been back. Mostly technical issues with hardware and software, and I’ve gotten pretty good at improving system performance, ect. Things like that.

I’ve also too been drawing again and have found a new technique that works for my stlye. It’s so amazing how you finally do learn that technique you needed to advance to the next step and the amazing results you now get. It’s great and it makes me feel little better knowing I have ‘dramatically’ increased my skills.

As well, I’ve been writing alot. I’ve always wrote these stories mostly for myself. I had publised one once, as a quizilla sort of thing. (You guys who are familiar with Quizilla know how these type of stories work.) It was a fanfiction but I don’t want to say which one. Going back now, It wasn’t ready. That was probably the only thing I ever shared besides things I was required to share in a class I took in the school I went to two years ago. (or is it 4? O.o?). Anyways, I grew up litterly writting faction starting with Dragonballz and Sailormoon. (Yes, this is a storry from way back in those days.) I was probably in 4th or 5th grade when I started writing them, maybe even younger! I just loved to write my own versions that I was part of. Reality I guess just wasnt my cup of tea back then. So over the years I wrote on and off and I have began to write again, except this time it is not fanfiction. It’s still fiction, but it’s my own original characters, ect.

I just seem to be haveing abit of trouble with it. I think there are too many elememnts, too many things I want to happen, too many  things I expect from my characters. Yesterday, I got the idea that I might be trying to blend two different story ideas I might actuallt have into one. Once I thought of that and tried seperating them, it helped alot.

So much I wanna do in my future: Write a book (or maybe even a series), own my own Cafe, be a graphics designer, and maybe even a fashion designer? I want to do a lot, but not it all…lol. I know I keep telling myself I will get started soon when I really should start now, but trust me when I say I just can’t!

Well, that’s enough for taday I guess, not that I’ve said much in awhile. Just once I start ramnbling I can’t stop and I’m even doing it now so I’m just going to go back to my daily boring life.

(It really feels like I’m reliving Groundhog day!)

tsumann[[[AI]]] yo …

(;;‐ω‐)=ε

by chezkoi:hellokitty.com

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It sure is raining alot these days…

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Lol, Rainy Day?!

by chezkoi:hellokitty.com

It rained today . . . and I think that’s funny.

It’s funny because my boyfriend and I like to sit out front on the steps during these hot/humid sunny days and tell people that they ’should have brought their umbrella.’ We were just kidding around, being bored  kids.

We were coming out of McDonalds and it sponatneously was pouring.

Guess WE should have bought our umbrellas.

Happy Summer Time!

by chezkoi:hellokitty.com

I absolutely LOVE summer!

I think that it is because I’m always cold, though. (*^-^)

Can you believe I can be cold when it’s around 80 degrees?! Σ(O_O;)Shock!!

Besides that I love Snow desserts and Icecream!!!

(Coffee is my #1!! Flavor)

But I have to say that, once living up north and experiencing a much colder climate year round, I’ve come to find love in winter fashion! I loved the snow boots and the coats and the different stockings! I felt it much easier to be fashionable during winter, lol.

Hot chocolate is a plus too!

Natsu-Ai!

 Just Bored,

Cheza

Random Update…SOS!

by chezkoi:hellokitty.com

Wow…My blog has turned into a Neopets/Art Blog….hehe

Not really my intentions, I just don’t really have much else to blog….nothing else is really going on.

Finally did get a charger for my camera about a month ago but I can’t seem to find how to video. I’m starting to think it dosent do that. What digital camera these days does not have that feature?! It’s a Casio Elixim. I might end up selling it to help pay for a Canon perhaps…like the one I use to have. I miss that camera. But this takes picturea still so I’m having some entertainment with it I guess.

There was a fire too. Two blocks down from us. Smoke filled the air so thick that it seemed the fire was a few doors down. It was a little frightint since there was a great fire that nearly destroyed our city years ago. It’s part of our history.

Recently…as in just a few minutes ago I had abit of an argument w/ my boyfriend. Sometimes he acts a little to cocky for my liking.

He’s one of those people who are good at everything, which I don’t mind because If I need help doing anything, such as playing games on neopets, I have one of those ‘ultimate people’ lol.

Just now he was saying again how he can do anything, I sarcastically started asking if he knew about creating websites usuing html. He ‘claimes’ he can. The basics are pretty normal for people who generally use computers to know now adays so I give him that. But he got cocky with it, especially when I said that one code error could make everything or atleast the majority of it not work. I said this because I know of one thing he cant do and that is spell, which is pretty crucial that you not mispell codes which is almost another language, a computer language. So if you can’t spell in this language….get where I was going with that? As well he’s not even a computer user. I could live on it, he’s gets bored with it, as if there is nothing to to on it where I have limtied time (I feel sometimes, lol) for all the internet has to offer me. He claims her knows html because his sister showed him on myspace, but it’s much harder than he thinks.

I guess I got a little upset again because I thought computers were the one thing I was better at than him, that he couldn’t surpass me in.

I have to be honest though, at times I do feel envious. Usually its when I think I pretty good at something, then he does it better. It didnt get to me at first, but when he seemed to do all I thought I was uniquely good at just as good or better, usually better. I don’t mean to be that way, but I have the emotion like others and it comes out sometimes and I get frustrated with him and I can be a bit rude about it.

I fear my envy might turn this into a competition between us, causing much tension. I really really don’t want that.

If anyone reads this, and has and idea of what I can do to not feel this way, please help.

S.O.S. ////ChezAi

Yume…yume…

by chezkoi:hellokitty.com

Dreams are so vivid and close sometimes.

But I cannot reach them, I think I’m too short!

Few days I wish to be taller, but that is also another impossible dream.

Sometimes I think they are there to tease most of us, with things we desire but can’t have.

Maybe we are not all suppose to have them, but to believe we can so that we work harder to try and reach something we really can’t have.

Or maybe they are to entertain us, give us escape from the harsh real world.

Yes.

It’s so harsh and I dislike that.

Work to live, live to work. We are not ants.

But we are not ‘luxury living’ household pets either.  Someone has to do the work so others don’t have to.

But that’s not fair right?

Maybe we could take turns?

I want to own my own business…or perhaps a few.

But I’m still too short. . .

for now anyway. (-.^)V

Cheza Ai(z) Tu!

Cheza’s A-Z Loves

by chezkoi:hellokitty.com

 Mi amoures::

Animals
Bijou *my hamster (^.^)*
Chocolate Chip Frappacino
Dance
Ebay
Felines
Gackt
HelloKitty
IceCream
Jade
Kuromi
Lavender
Mochi
N.O
Ongaku
Pisces
Quentin Tarantino
Rainbows
Snakes
Trampolines
Umbrellas
Vanilla
Warmness
XXI
Yaoi
Zydeco

¡Y tú!!!

¿Te amo, Me amas?
ChezaI

Can no one help us?

by chezkoi:hellokitty.com

Today I am crying.

I’m crying because I’m worried.

I have no identification and nobody seems to be able to help me. I feel all alone and that life is not for me to live because everytime I think I’m on the right track, something happens.

Now I fear I’m at the worst possible scenario. Without my ssn I can’t get an Id and without and Id, it’s hopless. All I have is me, my dad’s buisness where I sleep in the back on ground, myself, and my boyfriend. He has people but no trasportaion between them. So we might as well be off on an island, instead of just feeling like it.

Is there no help aside from parents for young teens trying to start their life?

Where is the helps for us young adults/teenagers??!

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I had to take a break to calm down. I am calm now.

I’m going to try hard not to worry and do the best I can, that’s all I can think of to do at the moment. I already called and looked up all the rescources I could think of.

Hopefully I am in the hands of good fate, in the end.

{………………………………………………………………………………………………..Cheza….}

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