I’m one of those go with the flow type of people.

That dosen’t mean I don’t LOVE to plan ahead…because I so do! (*^-^)

I love planning ahead for things and spend alot of my time doodling in my notebook at night of all the things I wanna do and when I plan on it.

The only thing is, like always, they just never fall though. Something always seems to come up!  (×_×#) !

But This time, especially after this new year, I make it my (very early) New Years Resolution! o(^-^)o!

Still, Like the fish that I am, I think I shall Always go with the flow, But this time, it will be the way ‘I’ want to go!

<*))<*)) >>=<

…βyё βyё…..ChezaI

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~~~~Chez愛

I can feel it…

An Adventure is coming, coming real soon!

I feel excited, causing insomnia…

I’m dreaming it, and it makes me happy to do so.

I can’t wait!

Where will I go?

Who will I meet?

What will I do…What won’t I?

It’s brewing,  it’s storming,  it’s coming.

Well hurry on now, I can hardly hold on to patience.

My friend showed me this video the other day and I thought it was wicked so I wanted to share it too!

Halloo!

Just checking in. (^.^)

I’m so excited. I am moving soon again.

It’s sad too though.. (T_T) I will miss my new friends here too. But of course I will be back to visit around holidays.

But I will get to be with my bestfriend again! So I am very happ~ii!!  (^o^)/  So happy I already started planning everything! Oh how will I decorate my room and riding the train!

I love the city!

Chicago が大好き! (*^-^*)

 XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO~~~~Cheza

I saw these today! かわいい! I wanted them Instantly!

Sometimes when I’m bored I like to take some quizzes and this site I have found to be the most fun! Here are some that I tried out/ liked the most. You should definetly check out the whole site for yourself though for it’s got tons of wicked fun ones!

http://www.personalityquiz.net/

Open the refrigerator, put in the elephant and close the refrigerator. Correct Answer: Open the refrigerator, take out the giraffe, put in the elephant and close the door. This tests your ability to think through the repercussions of your actions.Q3. The Lion King is hosting an animal conference. All the animals attend, except one. Which animal does not attend?

Correct Answer:

The elephant, since it is still in the refrigerator. This tests your memory. Even if you did not answer the first three questions correctly, you still have one more chance to show your abilities.

Correct Answer:

You swim across. All of the crocodiles are attending the meeting!

This tests whether you learn quickly from your mistakes.

The next one is a very neat Picture test by Ulla Zang

They give you a choicebetween 9 images where you much chose depending on color and shape.

(Click the picture to go to the quiz and choose your own image of your choice.)

Peaceful discreet non-aggressive

You are easy-going yet discreet. You make friends effortlessly, yet enjoy your privacy and independence. You like to get away from it all and be alone from time to time to contemplate the meaning of life and enjoy yourself. You need space, so you escape to beautiful hideaways, but you are not a loner. You are at peace with yourself and the world, and you appreciate life and what this world has to offer.

MyBirthday Color is::

Aqua

Your feelings change suddenly and easily. You are always lonely, and like traveling. You are truthful, but believe other people too easily. It’s hard to find the right love for you, and you get lost in love easily, sometimes getting hurt.

Many people don’t believe the first letter of a name thing, but this is what my surname had to say::

V
You are individualistic, and you need freedom, space, and excitement. You wait until you know someone well before committing yourself. Knowing someone means psyching him out. You feel a need to get into his head to see what makes him tick. You are attracted to eccentric types. Often where is an age difference between you and your lover. You respond to danger, thrills, and suspense. The gay scene turns you on, even though you yourself may not be a participant.

This goes by the way  people sleep::

People who sleep in the fetal position

Long for security, intimacy and joy.
Take relationships slowly.
Tend to look at the world in rosy colors, and treat people kindly.
Are sensitive, though they may present a tough exterior to the world.
May appear shy at times or when meeting people for the first time.

My Birthday Tree is::

Weeping Willow tree

Weeping Willow tree: (the melancholy) - beautiful but full of melancholy, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful and tasteful, loves to travel, dreamer, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with, demanding, good intuition, suffers in love but finds sometimes an anchoring partner.

There are meny of these types of quizzes on here, which I find very fun to do and just very cool over all. I wanted to list at least one, a short one, to give and idea.

1. You are walking in a field of rolling green grass and the wind is blowing soothingly upon your face when you see a box in the middle of the field. Is it
a. Open?
b. Closed?2. As you walk by the box, you notice a horse patiently chewing grass. What color is it?
a. White
b. Brown
c. Black

If you are a girl, go to the next question. If you are a guy, go to question 8.

7. As you approach the pond to feed the swans, you see a knight clad in armor. As the knight takes off his helmet to greet you, you realize it is someone you know. Who is it?8. As you approach the pond to feed the swans, you see a princess in royal robes. As the princess unveils herself to greet you, you realize it is someone you know. Who is it?

Results

1.This describes your personality.
b. Reserved and quiet. You do not like to share secrets.2. This is the way you choose your mate.
b. You do not care about looks, only personality.

Cheza is happy today.

Very Happy.

d=(^o^)=b

I am excited for the Faerie Festival on the 20th of this month. I wonder what will be in store.

I went out and had a lot of fun today. And now I’m home getting ready for bed.

Whooosh! Life is crazy. I wonder what it will throw at me next, tomorrow?

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Cheza

Already deep into September…and I have been Missing.

Apologies…

I feel abit sad and lost these days.

My future seems to shift farther and father away and life seems dark at the end of the tunnel and a bit scary in some ways that make me often not want to venture down it to find out.

As a result of my feelings, I have been lacking around.

In recent attempts to have fun and feel ‘alive’ I have been doing some damage to my body and to my image (i think) in the eyes of others.

Recently I have not quite fallen in love, but come to very much like and enjoy the company in another. At first i was very shy, as I sometimes can be with people I really am fond of, but when I began to loosen up, I start to become to comfortable to a point that when I do speak up or act up, I end up making my self feel humiliated inside and it makes me want to crawl back into my shell.

Sometimes this person makes me feel very good and happy when i really need it, and other times they make me feel like an annoying, innocent child.

Why do I seem to always be atracted to mostly bad boys? Is it because I am a good girl who secretly wants to be bad, or who gets a thrill out of being bad and they give me a thrill and make me feel alive? I think these personal choices and this lifestlye is dangerous for me…but then again sometimes, when I feel sad again, i do not care.

That is not a good thing, and I know.

But what does thins person really think about me? it’s so hard to see. At first I could tell that he liked me alot and his friends all said so. Sometimes it still seems that way at moments, but in other quick moments, it can all change in a second. It’s makes me sad to also thing that they might move to another counrty soon. I’m not sure if this was a joke or for real, but he said he was going and he was going to take his to friends. I’m not sure if i would want to go, but i was there and nobody mentioned me in the picture at all. I feel like and outsider everywhere  go now, and it’s mostly because I am. The people I grew up with are all gone now and when I kept moving I only moved with people already in deep firendships that I could never fit completely into and now I feel alone and isolated. i have no close friends at the moment and it hurts to watch everyone else having relationships I dream about but lack.

Right now all I have is my ipod and a notebook full of dreams and ideas for a future I might not ever pursue.

Being a Pisces is harsh on me these days, but I am a dreamer…which seems to be all I have right now….

 Till Next time…Chez*Ai

Ps:: My New friend I mentioned, the one I liked, said he was on his way to come see me and chat. That was almost 3 hours ago and it’s very late. I don’t think he’s coming. -sigh-

I’m STILL here, but little by little it’s getting more tolerable. I’m meeting better people. The job & town still suck…but that’s all i’m gonna say. I don’t want to turn this into a hate blog…no one I’m sure wants to here me rant and complaing every blog entry I write. So that ends that.

Anyway, I recenlty bought another ipod video. I had one before but it was stolen along w/ my purse@ sixflags. So then, just until i had enough to get another, Kuma-Kun bought a nano of this kid for me. But i just sold that one to help pay for my new one! (^.^) I’m so happy. I’m such an ipod junkie!

Hopefully I can return to Chi-town soon. I wann go back to my city life. Isn’t city life great? I love how everything you could possibly need/want is within a few block radius! Even if it’s not atleast they have taxis! ….(-.-?) Sorry, i think i was almost getting back to my ranting again.

-sigh- So already I have no privacy and around two tomorrow we pick up another. I’m am going to have even less time. And now that my work schedule changed to day time, it’s hard to work around it and get to the library to post more often. It’s usually closed after I get off, and if before I’m sleeping.

 I know that it might seem hypocitical of me to say I can’t blog but I have time to atleast do the dailies on Neopets everyday, but with the blog, I have no privacy. I’ve tried to write numerous times before but people kept trying to read and it’s very embarassing for me!

Well since I don’t want my blog to become to boring, I’m gonna start posting more colorful? blogs…? lol. I’m not sure but atleast doing that i dont mind as much if people are looking. I was thinking to of getting my hard drive sent up to connect to this computer so i can do more and then I’m gonna go but a connector/charger for my camera so i can post pictures and videos.

That reminds me, i need to take more pics w/ that camera and then post them. Well people are coming home and getting up and hanging out so I’m gonna go. Hopefully I’ll see you 2morrow.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~BaiBai

I’m so so sorry!

I really want to blog more often and I’m trying so hard to not forget or to find time to do so but it’s difficult. Especially when I have to share the very limited time I already ahd w/ someone else who has come. Just so happens they share my same time, same schedule and even wores is that another comes @ the end of the month so it may be harder but I will for sure find some way by then to get on. I guess I will just have to go visit the libray instead during my free time.

But i’m liking it less and less and less…

I was only suppose to be here for two months:

• The Good news is that this set timing stay is half over.
• The Bad news is that I might have to stay longer.
• The Ugly news is that it could be a way longer stay in a place I just can’t seem to find anything good in.

There are some good places I have been to, or maybe just one. When we went to go to this family get together, surprisingly I did like it there. The mountains and atmosphere was refreshing. Another thing I have just realized that I do enjoy here is how, unlike my  city life, you can smell the rain strongly right after and that’s very nice thing to experience.

 just can’t help it though. I’m from the city, I’m use to the city and I never want to live anywhere but near a city. I don’t like this having to drive 20-30 miles just to feel like I’m somewhere on the map! (Which no surprise this place is not.) Lot of people here think the city is more dangerous. Of course we do have the typical city gang violence but I rather be shot by a gangbanger in the city than dragged to an excluded place in the country where I’ll be hacked into little peices!!! (O.O)!!!

Lol…okay maybe my movie instincts got too much into that last comment.

I’m doing pretty good on Neopets now for the little time I have. When I can get on I’m usually good at making around 20, 000 in the hour I can get in if possible so I have a little over 100,000 nps now. It would be soooo much easier if I could just buy them right? Lol, but that really would throw off the balance of the site BUT if they ever did offer it, even for a day, I would surely take advantage of it. Paintbrushes are very expensive! Most cost around 500,ooo and up! (-.-’) I’m so far behind…

Anyway someone already just got home from work while the other one just got up an another will be home in about 45 min and I have to be to work myself in soon so I have to go now. I WILL update later and try not to be so spacious w/ posting as well. C-Ya! (^.~)V

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Always

                                                                                                             Cheza_Ai