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Two more months

cherriechow:hellokitty.com — Wed, 04 Jul 2007 17:52:13 +0000

With only two more months of school remaining, I should have a job lined up already. But… no. I haven’t applied anything yet. Having no idea where I would be two months later, I am so unclear and frustrated about my near future now…. I don’t know two months later whether I should quit my current part time job if I still haven’t found a full time job yet, or just stay and stick with it. And so, I can’t plan ahead whether I am staying in LA or moving back home.

I want to go home, but I don’t want to be unemployed and sitting at home all day long. I am tired of my current job, but I need the income. Do you see my dilemma?

So…now, I am sitting in my apartment, which lease ends in two months. I want to know where I will be next.

Who moved my cheese?

cherriechow:hellokitty.com — Fri, 29 Jun 2007 00:42:23 +0000

For those of you who read the book, you probably know the line “move with the cheese.” Move with the cheese… My cheese has moved to the US for years now, and I think I have been moving myself to the US little by little also. At least, that’s what I think….. For all these years, I have been adopting the lifestyle, the culture, the language, the environment, and everything of the US. It seems like, in many people’s eyes, that I am learning these things impressively fast. This sounds good and makes me feel proud of what I have done. However, as time past, I realize the “side-effect” of giving such impression to others. People slowly see that I have not conquer the things I learn and improve as much as I appeared to be. They got disappointed. They are disappointed in me, which I did not expect nor wanted it to happen. People now expect me to be better; expect me to be what they thought I am. Well, I am not there yet…. and I can’t just be like that in a blink of an eye.

I am constantly improving just as I have ever been. I am moving with the cheese since the very moment my cheese has moved. All I am begging for, from all of you, are time and acknowledgement. Please allow me some time to learn and improve myself. Please help me and lead me to become better instead of letting me get away with things. I will very much appreciate your acknowledgement and encouragement. And I am not asking for a lot. I truly hope you understand.

Chatting

cherriechow:hellokitty.com — Thu, 07 Jun 2007 10:29:27 +0000

Sometimes we want to know about that person’s recent life in detail.

Sometimes we want to ask that person something specific.

Sometimes we want to tell that person something in our mind.

Sometimes we just want to talk to that person longer.

But… We after saying “Hi”, “How are you”, and “What’s new?”…

It’s silence.

We all know each other have something to say.

We all know what each other is thinking about.

We all have an idea what each other want to say.

But… we choose not to break the silence….

It’s painful… but somehow…. we don’t want to break the silence…..it’s just better acting stupid.

Recommandation Letter

cherriechow:hellokitty.com — Tue, 15 May 2007 21:24:35 +0000

Haven’t been writting here for awhile… for my life has been simple and smooth, nothing inspiring, special, nor upset happened. No complaint. Just living my life.
Graduation is getting closer and closer. I really need to start applying for jobs. But first, I need to write a good recommandation letter for myself…. I am sure I am not the only one doing this… My manager asked me to write my own recommandation letter myself, and she will sign it… I wish I know what she thinks about me… so I know what to write. I honestly object such idea… but she is my manager. What can I say… I would rather my manager write this letter, so that I know who I am in others’ opinion, what I am good at that I do not realized, and what I think I am good at but not how it is in her eyes. By knowing this, I get a better understanding of myself, and therefore, improve myself.
However, it doesn’t seem like I have such valuable opportunity. “I am busy enough. Cherrie, why don’t you write it youself and I will sign it.” said my manager. “I have done this to my other employees before.”
“uh….o..k..” I replied. Great… now I have to think what I should put in my recommandation letter. I do not want to be too humble, and I need to be honest. I have never written one for anyone else before, nor seen one. What can I do….

Publicizing old diaries and secrets???

cherriechow:hellokitty.com — Tue, 17 Apr 2007 12:30:37 +0000

An article in today’s newspaper said that somewhere in New York, some people are reading their old diaries and secrets out loud on the street. And the tend is now spreading to the West coast. I don’t know about you, but I will never be the one speaking my secrets. It’s not about violating our rights of privacy as the editor of the article believes. Secrets are considered secret for a reason. They are parts of us that we do not want others to know about. If we do, they are not secrets. I do not deny that it is an interesting practice and I would like to listen to others’ secrets. However, I will never read my old diaries and secrets out loud.

cherriechow:hellokitty.com — Tue, 10 Apr 2007 18:04:52 +0000

New quarter has just started, but I am tired of school already… This is the first quarter ever in my17+ years of school life that I have classes only on Tuesday and Thursday. I thought it will be relaxing and have more time to study at first… but it’s actually making me lazier… >.< Since I only have class two days in a week, I don’t take school serious anymore. This is so bad… I don’t want to fall behind. Can someone help me??? I need some kind of force or motivation…

cherriechow:hellokitty.com — Wed, 28 Mar 2007 14:39:00 +0000

Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.

NO Expectations, NO Disappointments.

cherriechow:hellokitty.com — Thu, 22 Mar 2007 00:23:21 +0000

When one has expected something, the only results are satisfaction, disappointment, and surprise. However, it’s mostly either satisfaction or disappointment in reality. Surprise happens when the result turns out to be way over satisfactory. This rarely happen in life. It’s like winning one of the top 3 prices from a lotto.

However, when one has NO expectation, everything is a surprise. No disappointment, beyond satisfaction, a surprise.

I love surprises. I try not to expect anything or put an expectation on anyone. So everything can turn out to be a surprise for me. I tried, and stilling trying…. but sometimes, I just expected something without knowing. I wouldn’t know until I feel disappointed. I really hate that. I don’t want disappointment, I don’t like disappointment, I don’t want any expectations.

As I say sometimes, Expectations lead to Disappointments. NO expectations, NO disappointments. The world will be filled with surprises and happiness.

Assumptions

cherriechow:hellokitty.com — Wed, 21 Mar 2007 19:00:02 +0000

I had a small talk with a friend yesterday about assumptions and misunderstanding. My friend found that assumptions are dangerous. He feels that for everything he says and does, others assume there are reasons behind them. And those reasons are totally different from his original intentions. I suggested that he perhaps can clarify his intention in the beginning to avoid incorrect assumptions which might lead to misunderstanding. (However, I also know my suggestion is only theoratical possible, realistically non-sense.) He hopes others should just stop assuming everything. But I told him this is not possible because all assumptions are made natually based on one’s experiences. I gave him a very simple and common scenario:

If you hear you boss coughing, you will assume he is sick or getting sick. Your boss doesn’t have to tell you anything. You just made that assumption natually based on your experiences.

The conversation ended here. However, I think this is a fairly interesting topic to discuss which could continue endlessly.

D T R T

cherriechow:hellokitty.com — Tue, 13 Mar 2007 20:53:53 +0000

My accounting professor gave the class another meaningful lecture today. He said that we are making choices everyday in our life and there are no right or wrong choices. There are just good or bad choices. As we grow older, the choices we made involve more responsibility. It is hard to tell others how to make a good choice. For example, parents might tell their children not to do anything illegal; do not hurt others; do not do anything they wouldn’t do themselves, etc. However, no one can tell you everything on how to make a good choice. Besides, people wouldn’t listen. It’s just like how your mom tell you to put on a sweater when you go out at night; wash you hands before dinner, etc. But it actually all comes down to four words. Do The Right Thing.