Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.

When one has expected something, the only results are satisfaction, disappointment, and surprise.  However, it’s mostly either satisfaction or disappointment in reality.  Surprise happens when the result turns out to be way over satisfactory.  This rarely happen in life.  It’s like winning one of the top 3 prices from a lotto. 

However, when one has NO expectation, everything is a surprise.  No disappointment, beyond satisfaction, a surprise. 

I love surprises.  I try not to expect anything or put an expectation on anyone. So everything can turn out to be a surprise for me.  I tried, and stilling trying…. but sometimes, I just expected something without knowing.  I wouldn’t know until I feel disappointed.  I really hate that.  I don’t want disappointment, I don’t like disappointment, I don’t want any expectations.

As I say sometimes, Expectations lead to Disappointments.  NO expectations, NO disappointments.  The world will be filled with surprises and happiness.

I had a small talk with a friend yesterday about assumptions and misunderstanding.  My friend found that assumptions are dangerous.  He feels that for everything he says and does, others assume there are reasons behind them.  And those reasons are totally different from his original intentions.  I suggested that he perhaps  can clarify his intention in the beginning to avoid incorrect assumptions which might lead to misunderstanding.  (However, I also know my suggestion is only theoratical possible, realistically non-sense.)  He hopes others should just stop assuming everything.  But I told him this is not possible because all assumptions are made natually based on one’s experiences.  I gave him a very simple and common scenario: 

If you hear you boss coughing, you will assume he is sick or getting sick.  Your boss doesn’t have to tell you anything.  You just made that assumption natually based on your experiences.

The conversation ended here. However, I think this is a fairly interesting topic to discuss which could continue endlessly.

My accounting professor gave the class another meaningful lecture today.  He said that we are making choices everyday in our life and there are no right or wrong choices. There are just good or bad choices.  As we grow older, the choices we made involve more responsibility.  It is hard to tell others how to make a good choice.  For example, parents might tell their children not to do anything illegal; do not hurt others; do not do anything they wouldn’t do themselves, etc.  However, no one can tell you everything on how to make a good choice. Besides, people wouldn’t listen.  It’s just like how your mom tell you to put on a sweater when you go out at night; wash you hands before dinner, etc.  But it actually all comes down to four words.  Do The Right Thing.

Recently, I have been lacking of patience.  I have lost my temper a couple times already with the month of March, which is rare for such a short period of time.  I don’t know why or what’s wrong with me, but I need to stop this.

Normally, people become inpatience when they are under stress or pressure.  (um…. I don’t think I am under pressure though…)  People also lost their temper when they are upset.  Am I upset about anything? ….I don’t know… I might be depressed, but not really upset.  Do people usually become impatience when they are depressed? If so, this might be the reason.  Oh…no.. if this is the case… I think I will be lacking of patience for a while…. 

Sorry my friends, I hope you can understand and forgive me when I am losing my temper…

Today’s post is solely for myself… Nobody would probably understand it.   Don’t ask me questions…  because I won’t clarify anything.  This is all about my personal issues.

Have you ever felt your heart is being squeezed?  Feel like someone or something is trying to take your heart away; like your heart is torn into pieces.  It is not a good feeling.  It hurts, with no physical pain….

I have such feeling every time I see an young Indian woman.  I don’t hate them.  It is just my personal issue.  I feel that there is an invisible hand squeezing and stealing my heart every time.  It hurts me inside.  Tears always run down my face when it happens….  I am in pain…deeply.