Welcome to CherrieBerry’s World
(http://blog.hellokitty.com/cherriechow)
~~~It’s all about me~~~

Frustration

December 14th, 2011 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

I am very frustrated right now and there’s nobody I can talk to. Do you know how that feels? It feels like you have lots of hot air in your head and can’t let it out. My head is like a balloon with hot air pumping in constantly. So much tension…. But doesn’t explode. It makes me sick.
There’s nobody I can talk to. It is work related. People outside of work will not understand nor appreciate it; people at work is definitely not who I can vent at. Venting at co-workers will only create drama… You know how scary Office Politic is….
So I am kinda stuck with this hot air balloon. This is so frustrating! The only solution I have at the moment is sleep. Sometimes the air will release on its own by resting………………

Long Time~

December 10th, 2011 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

It’s been four years since I last wrote. I guess that’s what happens after you graduated. Life has been busy but routine. People used to say “enjoy college / school life while you can.” Now I understand… Wish I did years ago.
Aside from that, nothing much has really changed. I am still working at the same company I was working at while in school. I got promoted a few times. However, I am still searching for a career I really want to be in.
I would like to apologize to those who digged my blog for I have abandoned it for such a long time. And I bet nobody but myself is reading this now.

Two more months

July 4th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

With only two more months of school remaining, I should have a job lined up already.  But… no.  I haven’t applied anything yet.  Having no idea where I would be two months later, I am so unclear and frustrated about my near future now….  I don’t know two months later whether I should quit my current part time job if I still haven’t found a full time job yet, or just stay and stick with it.  And so, I can’t plan ahead whether I am staying in LA or moving back home.

I want to go home, but I don’t want to be unemployed and sitting at home all day long.  I am tired of my current job, but I need the income.  Do you see my dilemma?

So…now, I am sitting in my apartment, which lease ends in two months.  I want to know where I will be next.

Who moved my cheese?

June 29th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

For those of you who read the book, you probably know the line “move with the cheese.”  Move with the cheese…   My cheese has moved to the US for years now, and I think I have been moving myself to the US little by little also.  At least, that’s what I think…..  For all these years, I have been adopting the lifestyle, the culture, the language, the environment, and everything of the US.  It seems like, in many people’s eyes, that I am learning these things impressively fast.  This sounds good and makes me feel proud of what I have done.  However, as time past, I realize the “side-effect” of giving such impression to others.  People slowly see that I have not conquer the things I learn and improve as much as I appeared to be.  They got disappointed.  They are disappointed in me, which I did not expect nor wanted it to happen.  People now expect me to be better; expect me to be what they thought I am.  Well, I am not there yet…. and I can’t just be like that in a blink of an eye.

I am constantly improving just as I have ever been.  I am moving with the cheese since the very moment my cheese has moved.  All I am begging for, from all of you, are time and acknowledgement.  Please allow me some time to learn and improve myself.  Please help me and lead me to become better instead of letting me get away with things.  I will very much appreciate your acknowledgement and encouragement.  And I am not asking for a lot.  I truly hope you understand.

Chatting

June 7th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

Sometimes we want to know about that person’s recent life in detail.

Sometimes we want to ask that person something specific.

Sometimes we want to tell that person something in our mind.

Sometimes we just want to talk to that person longer.

But… We after saying “Hi”, “How are you”, and “What’s new?”…

 It’s silence.

We all know each other have something to say.

We all know what each other is thinking about.

We all have an idea what each other want to say.

 But… we choose not to break the silence….

It’s painful…  but somehow…. we don’t want to break the silence…..it’s just better acting stupid.

Recommandation Letter

May 15th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

Haven’t been writting here for awhile… for my life has been simple and smooth, nothing inspiring, special, nor upset happened. No complaint. Just living my life.
Graduation is getting closer and closer. I really need to start applying for jobs. But first, I need to write a good recommandation letter for myself…. I am sure I am not the only one doing this… My manager asked me to write my own recommandation letter myself, and she will sign it… I wish I know what she thinks about me… so I know what to write. I honestly object such idea… but she is my manager. What can I say… I would rather my manager write this letter, so that I know who I am in others’ opinion, what I am good at that I do not realized, and what I think I am good at but not how it is in her eyes. By knowing this, I get a better understanding of myself, and therefore, improve myself.
However, it doesn’t seem like I have such valuable opportunity. “I am busy enough. Cherrie, why don’t you write it youself and I will sign it.” said my manager. “I have done this to my other employees before.”
“uh….o..k..” I replied. Great… now I have to think what I should put in my recommandation letter. I do not want to be too humble, and I need to be honest. I have never written one for anyone else before, nor seen one. What can I do….

Publicizing old diaries and secrets???

April 17th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

An article in today’s newspaper said that somewhere in New York, some people are reading their old diaries and secrets out loud on the street.  And the tend is now spreading to the West coast.  I don’t know about you, but I will never be the one speaking my secrets.  It’s not about violating our rights of privacy as the editor of the article believes.  Secrets are considered secret for a reason.  They are parts of us that we do not want others to know about.  If we do, they are not secrets.  I do not deny that it is an interesting practice and I would like to listen to others’ secrets.  However, I will never read my old diaries and secrets out loud.

April 10th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

New quarter has just started, but I am tired of school already…  This is the first quarter ever in my17+ years of school life that I  have classes only on Tuesday and Thursday.  I thought it will be relaxing and have more time to study at first… but it’s actually making me lazier… >.<  Since I only have class two days in a week, I don’t take school serious anymore.  This is so bad… I don’t want to fall behind. Can someone help me??? I need some kind of force or motivation…

March 28th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.

NO Expectations, NO Disappointments.

March 22nd, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

When one has expected something, the only results are satisfaction, disappointment, and surprise.  However, it’s mostly either satisfaction or disappointment in reality.  Surprise happens when the result turns out to be way over satisfactory.  This rarely happen in life.  It’s like winning one of the top 3 prices from a lotto. 

However, when one has NO expectation, everything is a surprise.  No disappointment, beyond satisfaction, a surprise. 

I love surprises.  I try not to expect anything or put an expectation on anyone. So everything can turn out to be a surprise for me.  I tried, and stilling trying…. but sometimes, I just expected something without knowing.  I wouldn’t know until I feel disappointed.  I really hate that.  I don’t want disappointment, I don’t like disappointment, I don’t want any expectations.

As I say sometimes, Expectations lead to Disappointments.  NO expectations, NO disappointments.  The world will be filled with surprises and happiness.

Assumptions

March 21st, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

I had a small talk with a friend yesterday about assumptions and misunderstanding.  My friend found that assumptions are dangerous.  He feels that for everything he says and does, others assume there are reasons behind them.  And those reasons are totally different from his original intentions.  I suggested that he perhaps  can clarify his intention in the beginning to avoid incorrect assumptions which might lead to misunderstanding.  (However, I also know my suggestion is only theoratical possible, realistically non-sense.)  He hopes others should just stop assuming everything.  But I told him this is not possible because all assumptions are made natually based on one’s experiences.  I gave him a very simple and common scenario: 

If you hear you boss coughing, you will assume he is sick or getting sick.  Your boss doesn’t have to tell you anything.  You just made that assumption natually based on your experiences.

The conversation ended here. However, I think this is a fairly interesting topic to discuss which could continue endlessly.

D T R T

March 13th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

My accounting professor gave the class another meaningful lecture today.  He said that we are making choices everyday in our life and there are no right or wrong choices. There are just good or bad choices.  As we grow older, the choices we made involve more responsibility.  It is hard to tell others how to make a good choice.  For example, parents might tell their children not to do anything illegal; do not hurt others; do not do anything they wouldn’t do themselves, etc.  However, no one can tell you everything on how to make a good choice. Besides, people wouldn’t listen.  It’s just like how your mom tell you to put on a sweater when you go out at night; wash you hands before dinner, etc.  But it actually all comes down to four words.  Do The Right Thing.

Impatience

March 12th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

Recently, I have been lacking of patience.  I have lost my temper a couple times already with the month of March, which is rare for such a short period of time.  I don’t know why or what’s wrong with me, but I need to stop this.

Normally, people become inpatience when they are under stress or pressure.  (um…. I don’t think I am under pressure though…)  People also lost their temper when they are upset.  Am I upset about anything? ….I don’t know… I might be depressed, but not really upset.  Do people usually become impatience when they are depressed? If so, this might be the reason.  Oh…no.. if this is the case… I think I will be lacking of patience for a while…. 

Sorry my friends, I hope you can understand and forgive me when I am losing my temper…

My heart…. hurt…

March 6th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

Today’s post is solely for myself… Nobody would probably understand it.   Don’t ask me questions…  because I won’t clarify anything.  This is all about my personal issues.

Have you ever felt your heart is being squeezed?  Feel like someone or something is trying to take your heart away; like your heart is torn into pieces.  It is not a good feeling.  It hurts, with no physical pain….

I have such feeling every time I see an young Indian woman.  I don’t hate them.  It is just my personal issue.  I feel that there is an invisible hand squeezing and stealing my heart every time.  It hurts me inside.  Tears always run down my face when it happens….  I am in pain…deeply.

It’s a small small world

February 28th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

I had a mock interview today.  The event is called “Interview with a Bruin”.  Current UCLA students who signed up for the event have a chance to practice their interview skills by interviewing with an UCLA alumni.  My interviewer was Ron Alatorre, the Former Principal of Mills High School, which is the #1 public high school in my school district.  What a small world… Out of 100+ interviewees and interviewers, with more than (100)^2 number of combinations, I was interviewed by Mr. Alatorre. 

The mock interview with Mr. Alatorre was very helpful and contributive.  He pointed out the exact problems and weaknesses I have that I was not aware of.  He gave me feedback on my answers to some popular interview questions from a interviewers’ propective that is very valuable.  Mr. Alatorre is very wise and knowledgeable.  He is also an experienced interviewer for the fact that he hired so many teachers in his career as an educator.  Being able to meet with him today is such a meaningful and treasured experience that does not only improve my interviewing skills, but also benefits me as a person.

A lecture from my Accounting professor

February 20th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

I have a very interesting yet inspiring accounting lecture today. Professor Ravetch was singing songs he wrote while playing his guitar on the stage. He also wrote us a song to help us remember some basic concepts of accounting. The whole class of 100 students were singing along with him. After the humorous performance, he pulled a chair to the middle of the stage and sat there for a moment. Then, he started to talk…

“…If you think life isn’t treating you right, you probably got it reversed. YOU aren’t treating your life right.”

“…I know it is easy to blame on others. But when you point your finger to someone else, you are also pointing three fingers to yourself.”

“…fight for what you want; fight for your dream. Nobody can help you achieve your dream except yourself. Believe in yourself. Believe in your dream. If you didn’t get what you wanted, nobody will feel sorrier than yourself.”

I don’t remember everything he said. But that 5mins talk was very inspirational. I honestly feel that this is the most valuable lecture I have ever attended from my four years of college.

It’s my Birthday!

February 16th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

doll1.jpg

Happy Birthday to me~

Happy Birthday to me~

Happy Birthday to myself~~~

Happy Birthday to me!!!

Happy Valentine’s Day

February 14th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

Happy Valentine’s Day for those of you who have a sweetheart today.  And please don’t say “Happy Valentine’s Day” to others without a sweetheart. PLEASE.

Valentine’s Day should be cancelled.  We don’t need this special day every year.  Everyday is like and should be like valentine’s day for those who have their sweethearts.  There is no need to make a special day for them.  And for those who are single or in a desperate situation, they don’t want valentine’s day.  It’s just a day to remind their loneliness.

Seeing girls passed by with their roses, I feel happy for them.  I want to be one of them…

Something I want to say….

February 8th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

As most of my friends on Facebook know, I rarely post a real picture up as my profile picture.  I like to put cartoon picture up as my profile picture.  But I do have about 60 REAL pictures of me in the photo albums which allows only my friends to see. 

Couple days ago, I wrote the first wall post on someone’s wall.  I simply said the following:

“I got the first wall post!!! YEAH!” 

 Today, there is a second wall post from a friend of that person which said the following:

“I guess i got the 2nd post… not sure if i should be excited?
facebook questions your identity until you replace it with a photo…might be a good idea to post up a photo” 

Here is my response to the 2nd wall post:

Facebook questions MY identity? I doubt it.  I have everything a stranger wants to know about me on my facebook profile.  Perhaps, you question my identity.  Just because you are not able to see my real pictures nor my full profile, does not mean I do not have real pictures on facebook.  Besides, why would you care about my identity?  It is absolutely NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!

Life with School and Work

February 3rd, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

I have been so busy lately….. 24 hours a day is really NOT enough!  Homework assignments and midterms from every classes are making me crazy.  I don’t like the quarter system at all!  With the quarter system, the class is only two and a half months long.  And each class has 2 midterms, 1 final, and weekly homework assignments.  Let’s do the math.  If you are taking 3 classes in a quarter, you have 6 midterms, 3 finals, and 30 homework assignments in 10 weeks.  Basically, a test and 3 homework every week….   what a nightmare… :::>.<::::

Besides school, I work 20 hours a week which means 20 hours less to study and do homework.  I don’t care about work that much because school is my priority.  To me, work is a escape from school.  Just a couple hours a day at work, I can absolutely forget about school, homework, midterms, etc.  In a certain degree, work is my place to be released from school(and get paid meanwhile).

Life is stressful and busy with both school and work. However, I like it.  I like to be busy and running around all day long.  I will be bored if I have nothing to do…  ^_^

January 30th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

Sometimes one smile means more than a dozen roses.

                                                  — from a chocolate wrap

January 25th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

hit counter

I am graduating!!!

January 25th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

cap00000.gif

After planning with a counsellor, I am now confirmed that I am graduating this June.  I cannot believe I am graduating already. It seems like I have just started college yesterday.

Knowing that I will be graduated within half a year,  I need to start planning what I want to do after college.  I went to the Undergraduates Business Society job fair unexpectedly and without any preparation today.  I have spoken with a couple recruiters from banks, private financial institutions, and business/financial related State departments.  I was amazed by how everyone is interested in me.  And the fact that I was not dressed up and not having my resume with me does not disappointed them at all.  Instead, they love me because of my rich experience and knowledge of the field.  I was asked repeatedly by each recruiters to send them my resume.  Looks like there are plenty of opportunities for me after college.

Happy Shopping Day

January 22nd, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

My orginal purpose of going to Santa Monica today is to buy a nice pair of Jeans that fits me perfectly.  But the trip ends up with a lot more than just a perfect pair of Jeans.

After the Christmas sales, After Christmas Sales, End-of-Year Sales, it is now Final Clearance.   hummm…. Final Clearance… love it… can’t resist… hehe ^_^.  Every single store on the street has a huge Sales sign out.  Stores that go on sale all the time are doing a ”entire store” sales event with the deepest price mark down ever.  Stores that don’t go on sales as frequent are taking up a pretty large portion of the store for sales items too.  The percentage of the mark down from every stores is above 50%!  Only if you have looked at the price tag… I seriously cannot put an equal sign between the price and the quality of the item.

So this is the result of my trip for a pair of jeans:

  • A pair of the best material made and perfectly fit jeans from Banana Republic for under $20. (was $70)
  • A pair of extremely expensively made black pants from Express Design Studio for less that $30. (was $100)
  • A pair of nicely slim cut black jeans from Express for less than $20. (was $60)
  • A pair of beautifully designed jeans from FCUK for 50% off.
  • A pair of burgundy pointy-toe flats from Aldo for less that $30.

I don’t want to think about how much I spent today…. But, I am very happy with my day of shopping!!!

p.s. If you don’t already know, I am a shopaholic.

January 19th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

This pop up on my computer out of nowhere (but I love it):

“If you feel that something is pulling you back, that something might be you.”

That’s right. I am pulling myself back, and I knew it.  Am I gonna stop? Probably not for a while.

Congratulations to Aishwarya Rai and Abhishek Bachchan

January 17th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

Just a few hours after posting my last entry “Traditions”, I saw this online:

http://news.yahoo.com/s/afp/20070115/wl_asia_afp/afpentertainmentindia_070115125731

Former Miss World, Aishwarya Rai and Abhishek Bachchan are engaged.  If you noticed, Rai is 33 and Bachchan is 31.  This is a very late engagement in their traditions.  I can surely tell you that both of them have been under a lot of pressure about their marriage from their families.  This is because the fact that most of the preferred candidates chosen by the families are taken at this age.  One evidence you can find in the article is that the families have already scheduled the wedding in February or March, which is just a month or two from the engagement.

This is a very typical and traditional engagement in their culture.  Families from both side have influence on every single part of this marriage.  I sincerely give them blessings. And I hope that they are engaged because they love each other, not because they have to.

p.s. Aishwarya Rai is one of the most beautiful woman I have seen. 

Traditions

January 17th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

Some families from certain countries have really strict traditions on marriage.  I totally respect their traditions, but I really doubt the neccessity of enforcing them nowadays.  The following are some of the restrictions they have on choosing a partner.

  • Must be same nationality.
  • One family must know or be friends with the other family before the two persons start going out.
  • Must be opposite sex.
  • Must be married by or around 25 years old.
  • Must be chosen and approved by the parents of both sides.
  • Must have kids soon after married.

The list can be endless, but those above are the main ideas.  Some of them are reasonable to me.  However, most aren’t.  Once again, I completely respect those who choose to follow their traditions.  Yet, are they suitable in the present world?  Why would some families still forcing their children to follow these out-of-dated rules, when their children can find someone they truely love but just not within the traditions?  Are these traditions the best for those who followed? Decide it yourself.

In the end, I am simply glad that I am not born in one of those families with no freedom to love. 

January 14th, 2007 by cherriechow:hellokitty.com

doll11.png

First post… um… I should introduce myself… I guess…

Name: Cherrie

Sex: Too Busy

Age: Secret (I am legal to drink though)

Nationality: Cutie China Doll from HK

Location: Los Angeles, CA

Proudly attending UCLA Math/Econ

Want to know more about me???   Ask me then.

Pink Blog
Official FAQs of Sanriotown Blog
Fashion Blog
Director's Club