mood: happy

bored ever since vacation started.. got a bit of a problem but now it‘s solved.. i must have been lucky, dont you think?? oh well, i have been online for about every time of the hour surfing the net. i got tires of searching for oh-so-beautiful hello kitty products because i would not be able to get it anyway.. [too expensive] you know, shipping and stuff but i love to shop online.. i found a video that i was utterly looking for. i viewed it and i was happy about the video.. being very addicted to ACWW, the movie was already out but is in Japanese.. i found one with english subs and i gave the person who uploaded it a credit.. whoever made the english subs, praise you!! :3

here‘s the first part of the vid.. :)

from youtube

mood: sad..very sad

hey, i think this is a bit awkward, me telling what i feel and think on this blog. i cannot help it, i am very lonely and writing a post on this blog took e months before witing a new one. things can get a little confusing, don’t you think?

the past week was a nightmare to me and of course, my boyfriends family. they lost someone they really love. i was there to comfort him but i cannot understant why i act such a behavior. i want things back to normal but it can’t. i feel verybad about the situation but things only got worse. we had a fight last night about things i want. things i demand sometimes but made the situation very ba. i just want attention from him. with the past week, i felt invisible around him even though we were together. i just can’t hel it, i miss him.

i understand, he miss someone else, a very important person to them who will not be coming back again, well at least in human form. but why do i act suc a way? i’m such an idiot. i can never fill his longing for his loved one. i can never replace her. NEVER, because i am not her. i’m just his girlfriend, why do i demand so much. sometimes i just think of leaving but he does not want me to leave. he said it’s not the right time, oh so there’s a right time for me to leave?

i don’t know, i just wish this ends right away. i feel sorry for him about their loss but i feel sad about on how he treats me like a different person. it’s a totally different world. i know family comes first, that was my understanding but he often tells me that i should not go anywhere else even with my relatives, so how is that?! i really get confused, i don’t want to cry anymore, it’s useless. i want things to be better..

mood:

it‘s midnight and i am still awake for no reason.. i want a company so i decided to write here.. it has been 2 to 3 years since i‘ve met up with my friends back in high shcool.. i found this box filled with their letters before i went on to our retreat back in third year.. it was also my birthday then.. as i was reading these letters, i suddenly got tears in my eyes and thinking about them.. yes i admit i miss them but they are now far from me, thousands of miles away from me.. one of them broke up with the group and now i feel like saying sorry.. i realized she was misunderstood.. BADLY.. we were thinking all sorts of stuff about her being so pre-occupied.. it‘s never too late, is it?

i am sorry.. hope i can sleep now.. :c

i just did an animation of her pics.. i love her she’s sooo cute.. i am very addicted to photoshop right now..

mood:

listens to: beep…beep

anywayzz, been back for a long long time.. i was very busy doing school work that really driven me sooo crazy.. i can‘t stop complaining about it for weeks now and i was finally O-V-E-R! over i tell you, and being with people who pressure you really sucks.. yes of course i am doing it for my grades and to pass but it was too MUCH!.. sheesh when will it stop? yeah i know, till i GRADUATE which is waaaay too far from reach.. as much i love being creative comes an enemy which is pressure.. i want to do things when i feel like doing but when there‘s a deadline, all i do in school is a bunch of crap.. if you think i am messing my life, think again.. SOMEONE do messed my life these past weeks.. i do not want to experience it ever AGAIN!!

mood: i dunno

oh i get so excited.. my birthday‘s coming up next week.. i‘m going to be 18 and i‘m so happy.. (too eager huh?) hehe.. anyway.. i‘m not going to have a party like some people but that‘s okay.. i just wanted to celebrate it with my family and my beloved one.. *blush* i was wondering what will he give me.. sad thing is, he wont tell!! rats.. i will just wait for it.. *sigh*

oh it’s rosie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

here it is.. i also placed in pour lolita strap on my phone.. and i oh so looooove it.. : ) talk about getting so addicted.. alas, my dream came true.. and more to come..

it has been months after i last posted something here.. i was very busy at school lately and i cannot manage to do things all at the same time.. then again, i was thinking, why am i in school?? oh forget it.. i just want to take the time over to relax and think about a lot of things.. anyway.. i will just continue this later.. my moms out so i need to check up on our house..

mood: excited

june 7, 2007
I HAVE MY VERY OWN HELLO KITTY CELLPHONE!!!!!!!
at last the wait is over, now i own the best phones ever.. wow i feel so happy that i have it now.. *smiles*

mood: normal

music: sound of the aircon… (lalalala…)

i have been playing AC:WW for quite some time now.. i got soooo addicted to this game that for a moment before, i thought it was a piece of crap.. (sorry) anyway, i got so much information that got me hooked to this awesome game and it gave so much enthusiasm to play.. i don‘t know why but i get so much hooked in this game.. ohhhhh my eyes are starting to sore.. :)

kk slider is driving me nuts over his songs.. it is so hard to complete because i can get only one song every saturday night.. i don‘t want to cheat you know.. even if it is hard, cheating is not part of my game..

and i wonder, when will redd sell me authentic paintings?? and lyle, to stop offering me insurances?????????

give me a break guys……