mood: very happy

la la la la that’s what you get if you let your heart win la la la la

it‘s already sunday and we‘ll be going to singapore tomorrow afternoon. time flies so fast, does it? oh, i am so thrilled!! i really can‘t wait. i already packed all my things and i am all set. i wonder if my boyfriend and his brother is ready. XD

i will not be able to blog for a week because i cannot bring my laptop [excess baggage] and there‘s an extra fee for the hotel internet. i will just wait until i return.

i also cannot redeem my Sanrio Fans Club card because my flight is tomorrow. i will try to ask my mom to get it for me. hah! i have been waiting for it, finally it‘s there.

well, off to Singapore!! woohoo!! be back on the 8th

mood: sore

listening to: that’s what you get -paramore

okay, i got sick!!!
being sick is not what i want right now.
just because i walked off to and fro yesterday in the open, does that mean i have to get sick?! i hate it!
my body‘s in pain right now and i wasn‘t able to get full sleep last night. i even fell asleep while talking over the phone. [sorry baby..] now i feel cold even it is very hot outside. i have to get rid of this before going to Singapore on monday. i don‘t want to ruin our trip of being sick.
oh please make me well again!!!!

mood: ohh you guessed it

OMG! i just found this video awhile ago and it totally knoked me off. this is like an american idol style of show based somewhere. she became popular in an instant like william hung, ronaldo lapuz and the like. just to share to you, this is a song by mariah carey entitled without you but transformed into KEN LEE. at first i thought it‘s the name of the person but after viewing it with english subs, i found out that she sings the part of “i can‘t live“ to “ken leeee“. haha, just a thought, people viewed it lots of times

this is the audition part..

mood: just being me

add color to your life

IT’S SUMMER AGAIN!!! WOOOHOOO!!!

okay, so now what?

i dunno..

stay at home..

do random things..

be a bum..

what else??

oh nevermind..

just be happy!

like lumpy [happy tree friends]

what’s the connection??

anyway.. doesn’t matter

i’m outie.. XD

mood: thrilled

our trip to Singapore is coming soon and i am very excited to go! it is my first time to travel abroad and enjoy myself. sadly, my mom isn‘t coming. it‘s her gift to me, traveling abroad, for my 18th birthday last year. i thought she will come with us, my boyfriend, his brother and family, who reside in Singapore. i am planning lots of stuff to buy there! first is a brand new pink nintendo ds lite. that‘s first in my list. other things like hello kitty follow. :3

tomorrow, i am going to buy a new pair of glasses [hello kitty of course!] and be as fashionable as ever. well not too fashionable. it‘s going to be 2 set of frames, one is in black, the other is in purple. oh i am really going to LOVE those frames, even if i have a very poor eyesight. still i have hello kitty frames!! XD

i hope my countdown is correct…..

mood: happy

bored ever since vacation started.. got a bit of a problem but now it‘s solved.. i must have been lucky, dont you think?? oh well, i have been online for about every time of the hour surfing the net. i got tires of searching for oh-so-beautiful hello kitty products because i would not be able to get it anyway.. [too expensive] you know, shipping and stuff but i love to shop online.. i found a video that i was utterly looking for. i viewed it and i was happy about the video.. being very addicted to ACWW, the movie was already out but is in Japanese.. i found one with english subs and i gave the person who uploaded it a credit.. whoever made the english subs, praise you!! :3

here‘s the first part of the vid.. :)

from youtube

mood: sad..very sad

hey, i think this is a bit awkward, me telling what i feel and think on this blog. i cannot help it, i am very lonely and writing a post on this blog took e months before witing a new one. things can get a little confusing, don’t you think?

the past week was a nightmare to me and of course, my boyfriends family. they lost someone they really love. i was there to comfort him but i cannot understant why i act such a behavior. i want things back to normal but it can’t. i feel verybad about the situation but things only got worse. we had a fight last night about things i want. things i demand sometimes but made the situation very ba. i just want attention from him. with the past week, i felt invisible around him even though we were together. i just can’t hel it, i miss him.

i understand, he miss someone else, a very important person to them who will not be coming back again, well at least in human form. but why do i act suc a way? i’m such an idiot. i can never fill his longing for his loved one. i can never replace her. NEVER, because i am not her. i’m just his girlfriend, why do i demand so much. sometimes i just think of leaving but he does not want me to leave. he said it’s not the right time, oh so there’s a right time for me to leave?

i don’t know, i just wish this ends right away. i feel sorry for him about their loss but i feel sad about on how he treats me like a different person. it’s a totally different world. i know family comes first, that was my understanding but he often tells me that i should not go anywhere else even with my relatives, so how is that?! i really get confused, i don’t want to cry anymore, it’s useless. i want things to be better..