to start off, this is the girl i mentioned in i think my second entry or so, cassie. the one i hate. but i just need something from you guys. no, i don’t think of myself as “OHEMGEE i think i`m so gorgeouss so someone just tell me that i`m the prettyone!! ” — NO OKKAE :] its just something for something i`m doing, i wanna get this over with and who in your opinion is the better looking one ? NO, i wont get feelings hurt, this if for something i`m planning to do, all i need is honesty :] please and thankyou ! :]

 

arytiee ! haha so i haven`t updated in awhile. k, so me and my boyfriend are planning to get a sidekickID, which is what you see up there. for those of you who know aboout the whole line of sidekicks, this is prettymuch the cheapest one they have i think. and kindof the newest, except, it doesn`t have a camera (: only used for chatting/texting/calllling. haha good enough for mee, cause as we know i already bought my camera ! yaaay <3 haha. anyways, yuup, & it`s only 50 buucks, plus other stuff, no big. & since their changable plates don`t come in pink, i`ll buy myself a pretty skin (: i was thinking strawberrriees, something pinkish. sadly they don`t have hellokitty ): i wannna suggest it, since they have other comic characters and disney tooooo. buut thats okay for now. basicallly, i haven`t been up to much, just welcome wagon about three days ago, touring litttle 6th graders around their new school. 8th graders, finallllyyy ! but whats sucky is all my friennds are going into highschool and keith is already in there so yah :[ but 1 more yeaar, and i`m there !!

[siggh], morningg everyonee ! i hate when my boyfriends out sometimes. i duunno, i trust him, but guys nowadays, you see how they check out other girls, they don’t have to talk or anything, they can just pass you and look at you up and down. and i know my boyfriend has done that at least three times. and by the way, his names keith haah. i never gave the name, guess it never hit me x]  but yeah, he calls me everytime before he leaves, truth is, my boyfriend has changed alot thruout the 16 months we`ve been together. idk, wheen we first started out, he was very.. on his own a lot. he never told me when he’d be going out or hanging with friends, he just went for it. especially this girl i seriously dislike, cassie. when he met her i freaaking hated it. she was so pretty and yet so perfect, best smile, i could`ve sworn he liked her by the comments he left her.  but i never said anything, that was last summer. thats why me and my boyfriend now have been talking a lot because i confessed about all the times i`ve been hurt by his actions, and there was a lot. idk why i never spoke out. guess i was nervous. well that was the old me last summer, its the new me, i`m not scared of anything that comes my way in him, i`ll tell him off if i have to. no liee, but all these attempts to hurt me from him, well he didnt know but when i was hurt and he didn`t know it, i became stronger on my own. it hurts to know i did, its something to be proud of, but idk. i guess i am, i just wish he could go thru how i felt with other girls and him. but the thing is, he kinda is now. i commented this guy on myspace on his picture saying cutee, and keith claims he wasn`t “jealous”, but wish he looked as good as him. ha, thank god for karma. i`m just not saying anything, but i hope keith gets the full karma, to understand better how hurt i was, i reaally do. but i love him alot, like ALOT yaknow? but sometimes when i would think about all the past times, they get to me, and hit me why i didn`t speak up. i always think of breaking up with keith sometimes, idk, its just the thought, because he`s a sophmore and i`m in 8th grade [trust me its not as bad as you think, i`m mistaken for like a junior lol, idk, my looks prettymuch], and last yeaar i heard rumors he checked out other girls, but it wasnt true, well it was maybe a 98% chance not true. whatever, i learned to forgive but never forget, and gave him one last shot. if i hear one more thing this year, i can`t help anymore but to call it quits. it already sucked hearing it in my 7th grade year, i`m not anybody or anything ruin my last year in middle school ;]

- haha okaay so thats my boyfriend, and his friend kevin. i reallly love this picture because of my boyfriends expression, it makes me smile haha. & yess, to the left is kevin, his good friennd, but he`s very religious and very into God and everything. he`s a cool kiddo. i love him ha.

alright, so okaay well i`m back ! yeaah i said i`d update the next night, but idk i never did. so never beleive me on those kinds of things alright ? haha okay. well basically, i`ve been stuck around the house cause of my major maad strict parents.  the next time i may see my boyfriend is in like 2 weeks at my friends house [ gianna] only if she has her party for birthday/hsm2 movie nigght. [ high school musical 2 ] the problem with that is that my other friend was planning to have a sleepover, but they`re planning to change it around since it`s gianna`s birthday. baah, i haven`t seen my boyfriend in awhilee -_- it reeally stinnnks. its okaay, its okay. see these are the times where i really tend to miss school, blaah WOW. i guess it`s only cause i get to be with my friends. yuup. so later today i`m going to fortune buffet with my mom, and MAAYBE seeing keith, haha he begged his family to eat theere today so maybe with a chance of seeing me. sweet isn`t he ? it doesn`t matter to him just as long as he “sees my beautiful face” haha. he said that, not me well so yuup, thats my life, i just wish i could go out mooore !