My self esteem, conscious, and just my thoughts in general aren’t strong enough to keep me.I’ve had enough , I don’t want to give in, but really I’ve just been wanting the pain.

I can’t do anything right, whatever I say tends to give the wrong idea.I can’t convince people how I feel.I’ve been near crying these past few days, people don’t get me, and I feel no one even cares I’m here.I’m a joke to everyone around me.Nothing is serious no matter how I say it.I’m weak.Pathetic.

I’m just a stupid kid with silly little problems.I know.I always start arguments.I always rant, complain, cry, and insult people, yet I can’t take hits.I’m not going to survive this cruel world.

One thing runs through my mind every second ‘If I died or disappeared, would anyone really care? ‘ I don’t know the answer.I want someone to answer this question; something, anything!

I’m confused and scared, unable to fend off anything.I want help, but its not like there’ll be anyone there to comfort me.I want to scream.Scream I’m confused.I’m scared.I’m angry.I’m worried.Scream I don’t know my purpose anymore.I want help, but is there no more support for me?Will there ever be any, or am I trapped in this world all alone to suffer?Did I ever do something bad in a past life, and can I change my fate?What is my fate then?Will anyone ever understand?Do I have to yell to get someone to notice?Will anyone just see it clearly that I want help?