on the bright side I lasted a month…I slipped last night.Too much was going on, I broke down, crying and craving the pain.I dunno, start over, or just give up? I just want to give up, I don’t know any other way to.

No more support, everyone is living their own lives and I’m pretty much just an outsider.I’m afraid I’ve said something wrong, and I feel I’ve just been left behind.I don’t know anymore.I’m still a joke, and I’m still forcing myself to put on an act.I can’t force myself out of the act, nor can I force myself to tell anyone,I’ll look like a stereotypical fool to them.*sighs* what to do,I’ll eventually get over this, but for now,I’m surely stuck…