Well I’m back off of break, so I’m back to updating ( I know thats the opposite of normal people, point?), and well I can’t say I’m that happy
- My friends are trying to pair me up with one of my other friends (don’t worry its a dude), when I’m pretty much taken.
- That new kid…
When will he figure out no one likes him?Let alone that I despise him? - All thanks to a few students, I can’t go one hour without agitation. *sighs* when you get a label thats sounds like a threat, boys will try you to see how long it’ll take you to snap and attack…
I dunno, seems the break had either made me more vulnerable and weaker, or it made everyone else stronger.I feel weak and that if I just disappeared or died, barely anyone would care.all I want to do is just hide in the safety of my room and never leave.People don’t understand me and don’t care.Only a handful of people trust me and some are out of fear, I take jokes seriously, and these jokes have really been harsh if I think about it, and my past…its just scares me to think of what happened in the past now(meaning the past 3 years…).*sighs* well back to the real world, with no escape other than deafening loud music to drown everything out.
My God, my tourniquet
return to me salvation…
December 4th, 2008 at 4:37 am
“All I want to do is just hide in the safety of my room and never leave.People don’t understand me and don’t care”, this is what I feel.
“Deafening loud music to drown everything out”, this is what I do, this is the only cure, but once the music is turned off, you are brought back to the real world with no escape for tehe pain and misery, just hopelessness, suffering, pointlessness and no end to it. I thought I was alone but you feel the same. On this website I acted so happy, but it was all a lie, and you know what it means to suffer. WHY???? The music save me too….