but I may be off, but hey I made it far…ish…depending on how you view it.

Well my mind has wandered in many directions today, from “What should I draw…?” to “Why is he staring at me?o.O If I stop breathing will he not notice me?!*holds breath yet feels him staring still*Act normal….” or the most dumbest thoughts “Applesauce…” yes I am in fact very random.

Not such a bad day, my cousin and her friend weren’t here so it was quiet, only disturbance was that new kid who thinks everyone likes him while really we all find him a nuisance *Can’t get over the fact he suspected I was a guy*

Well I got irritated by him, but I’ll deal,uhh had a normal day pretty much, just much quieter. Got asked random questions and had really odd conversations, but hey thats me.Nothing has been causing a trigger. Sometimes though I just feel again as if I’m pathetic, I dunno some reason if I make a mistake it can “haunt” me.I get sudden memories of times when people have told me to the face “You’re getting in the way, leave you’re not helping.” straight to my face, and and yes, it does bug me.I try and try to get better only to be told I’m getting nowhere and I’m useless.Again criticism annoys the hell outta me, and can break me apart.

Certainly something I have to work on.Well, thats all the news, pointless ranting.See you in a few days, or not!