Afternoon laziness has crept upon me as I try to do “bookkeeping” chores at work. I’m not a bookkeeper, but I have to do some number crunching from my fund raising event. It’s quite difficult, because 1) I am an English and Writing major and 2) I am exhausted from my 2 meal lunch (well a burrito half and healthy choice mac n cheese). I guess there are a few other things I’d like to get off my chest. One is the obvious- I am still feeling empty inside from Q and I have had to make conscious efforts not to instigate communication. It’s all the more difficult when I see something I want to share with him and then I have to stop and remind myself he may just be around to keep my emotions stable (well, for the most part). I’ve still been down, even with the new fur ball, but I can tell the kitty is helping lift my spirits- even though I did just sit bawling with it for an hour last night. Today my high school journalism teacher stopped by. The last time I saw him we chewed the fat, but this time we were able to catch up. He informed me that his health has been declining since he retired in May. In that time he has found out about 2 inoperable tumors. One is not much of a threat but the other is aggressive. He said he is waiting on test results, but at this point the chemo is starting to take it’s toll. He said, at this point, if the results are lackluster he is just going to stop chemo and just live to the fullest while he can. It was hard to keep a straight face as he explained this to me. I have always looked up to this man. In my eyes he was an unstoppable grizzly, yet a teddy bear deep down. He was the first person to show me my strengths as a writer and he always encouraged me. I have his contact info and I plan to stay in touch. While I was in college I only visited him a couple times and now that I’m done I know I will have more time available.

…..Now, back to cross checking monthly budget sheets…..

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