The past few days I have felt much better. It seems easier to bounce back. I have definitely been in an “I’m in control” mode. I’ve been super productive at work and I’ve started hanging out with people again. For awhile I thought this house was going to drive me insane. Not to mention I just didn’t have a functioning vehicle, so I was imprisoned. It made me think about how the only other times I would trap myself in the house (for such long periods of time) I would do that in order to do lots of drugs. It made the time bearable, but it definitely took it’s toll. That’s not nearly the same state of mind I was in, but both shared that underlying loneliness and regret. I just can’t think about that now. I have been keeping myself busy and it has helped. I have my moments, but in reality, I think we all do. Now I just have fewer “moments” and it’s easier for me to get back on my feet. I also know that there are many others struggling with their own battles. I’ve seen it take it’s toll on some of the friends closest to me and that reminds me anything can be overcome. You just have to tackle everything head on and full force.

Now things with my heart are a different story. It still likes to flutter when I’m around a certain someone. Anyways, I have just been interrupted by that someone and I have to end this abruptly……

I shall return

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