Readers,

I don’t believe that I will be making multiple posts in the span of a week often. So thus the title of this post..

During the time that I was waiting to start my new job I started a small log. It was a log that I used to document my depression. It was very short because I was too depressed at times to acctually post on it. So that acctually brings me to right now. I had a sharp pang of depression just a while ago because of a figure I saw on T.V.

Anyways, on top of my depression I also have a haunting addiction. Telling you that should have just told you the cause of my depression. It’s not just fear but seizing panic that I feel in my chest with strong fast heavy breathing. I fear the unknown. I fear the afterlife. Everyone tells me of their beliefs but they mean nothing to me without the proof that I need to finally relax! (No offense to anyone’s beliefs of course!). I panic, I hurt, I cry, I twitch. This fear hurts so bad! The reason I am so fixated on the haunting shows is because I’m hoping that one day one of these shows will show me the security that I need to stop freaking out about everything.

I’m sorry. I should put a disclaimer here to warn people of my depression before reading…

Just to try and make up for this horrible post, I’m going to leave you with a picture of my little sister and I when I went to see her for her birthday.

Goodnight lovelies.