I guess I do…

I’m getting so sick of my mom. I’m 22 and I live in my own apartment with my dogs, my iguana and my fiance. So why does my mom irritate me so? Even though I do not live with her and have not lived under her dictatorship for the past 6 years? Simple.. She is a man destroyer.

All my life my mother has been in rocky relationships that usually end in me hating the guy that she eventually leaves for some character flaw of theirs. This time it is not the case. I love the man my mom is leaving now, I think he is a great person with YES a few flaws but then again who doesn’t have a few flaws these days? Can any of you boast being perfect and really have documentation to back it up in every way? NO you can’t! And thats why we love people. We love people for their flaws and their perfections. I believe that there is a song by Savage Garden that best describes that one. “And if all the world was perfect I would only ever want to see your scars” - Savage Garden - So Beautiful. Now with that said, my mom has spent the past few years trying to form this man in to what she wants him to be- not what he IS.

Now I do understand that this is her relationship and I shouldn’t be butting in and that she is a grown woman who can stand for herself. This is not true really. My mother has had to rely on me to make every grown up decision she has had to make since my sisters birth! All of the other men she has been with has never passed for my seal of approval and has been kicked to the curb, this one man who HAS passed it is the one that she is leaving now?!!?!? Forgive me but… WTF!?!?!? This makes no sense. She is just leaving him for an upgraded model which annoys me because she won’t let me see him or even know his name. The biggest thing that irritates me is that she is on some kind of ‘improving herself’ binge which is not good because when my mom tries to improve herself its because a man has told her she is imperfect in some way. She’s flipping her personality and becoming an alien to me! GAAAHHHH!!!…..

I’m scared..

So I guess I am taking on the role of woman advocator. I don’t mean to try and stand up for womans rights everywhere. I have found disturbing evidence showing that my uncle is a pervert. This disturbs me greatly and has lead to me randomly yelling at him in anger for the way he treats women.

 My outbursts have gone so far that I have started to speak with his girlfriend. She sincerly asked me if I she should leave him. Now I am torn due to the fact that he is my uncle but he is a disgusting person to women.. I really don’t think I should interfear, then again every fiber of my being is yelling at me to stop him right now. I told her to give me some time to think.. So I don’t know yet..

 On a even more horrible note, my main computer crashed! I’m just glad that I bought this netbook when I did.  All pictures and everything are there! going to cost around $1,000 to get everything taken care of… Sad. Good thing alot of pictures are backed up on my phone.

It is night time so I will go. Next post should be a array of Cassie wearing her clothes!

Sitting here next to my uncle as he tries to ream out the poor CSR that is on the phone with him right now from AT&T I hear him say things that  annoy the freaking SKIN off of me!

1.) I know it’s not your fault but..

2.) I wish you guys..

3.) You guys did this to me!

4.) *Any overly explained situation that has nothing to do with the account even though you believe it does*

5.) But you..

6.) I can’t afford this, you’re charging me too much!

—in regards to number 6.. seriously? You didn’t know how much your price plan was before you started your service?—

7.) You guys messed up now I have to pay for it?

Any statement saying “you” in it when the customer means the company is like scraping broken glass down the CSR’s spine. I’m so tired of customers thinking it’s our fault that they cannot keep track of their money when they signed up for automatic payments.

So maybe the customer feels they have been wronged, maybe the customer feels that we should care more, maybe the customer believes that the CSR IS the company.. well.. I do feel that you need to advocate for the customer every now and then depending on their situation… but seriously?!?!?!?! STOP BLAMING THE CSR…

So I told myself I wouldn’t do this.. but I just can’t help myself!

SPOILER ALERT!!!!
So I watched this movie a few hours ago called “Blindside” staring Sandra Bullock. This movie is about a under privileged African American boy who  ends up getting accepted in to a private Christian school because the person he was staying with pleaded for them to accept him. I get ahead of myself.. Lets slow this down..

The movie is about Micheal Oher, the football player. This is the story of how he grew up initially in the projects until Sandra Bullocks character: Leigh Anne Tuohy, sees him one day in the middle of the night in the pouring down rain walking to the school gym. They stop and ask if he’s okay and he replies that he is, saying he is going to the school gym. They accept the answer and drive down the road a ways, Sandra Bullocks character doesn’t buy this for one instant and demands that her husband turn the car around. Once they turn the car around, she steps out and stalks up to the boy and ask where he’s really going and he replies again “to the gym”. She confronts him on this fact and says that since it is the middle of the night the gym is closed. The boy then responds that he is going because its warm and dry in there. At this point you can’t really tell where Sandra Bullocks character is going with this since her face is an emotionless mask of marble. After just a moment of standing in the rain does she demand that the boy get in the car. He get’s in the car and they go back to her house. At this point in the story I should inform you that she’s loaded.. she has money up the ying-yang and it’s due to her husband. Other then that.. To make a long story short. They find that Micheal has a talent for football and they work hard on getting him a scholarship to college and getting his grades high enough to be accepted. The story is a good one, the characters are rich and entertaining. This is a movie I would recommend to anyone that doesn’t want to be either overly emotional or over encumbered with violence.

All in all.. this is a pretty great film and I would recommend it to anyone.

Ok, so I know I have been missing for a while .. again.. I have a bad habit and my consistency sucks. I could go in to my excuses such aaasss… : ” Oh I have a full time job” or “Aww I have to be a full time student at the same time” Or my personal favorite: “Well hey.. the video games to don’t play themselves ya know! I was busy!”. Those are all great excuses.. go ahead and pic your favorite if you would like…

Anyways.. The new news in the Alice household.. We have a new puppy! Woohoohoo!!! Right?? So just as I posted pictures of my other babies.. as will I post of this new one.

Baby Cassandra

On her way home

Marc, Cassie and their Daddy!

Cassies Finally home

So there it is.. the small little fuzz ball that has recently entered my life. Cassandra, she is a Toy Fox Terrier.. So lovely.. lol.

Readers,

It seems that I have been neglecting the blog readers here on sanriotown. I’m so sorry! I didn’t mean too. But if you read my first post you would see that work is one of my all consuming passions. So what did work do? It kept me away from you! I’m sorry… and in order to make it up to all of you. I will be getting some pictures of Marc up here for all of you to see at your lesiure.  After all my birthday just passed on November 7th. I’m officially 21 now! Yay? Blah.

So as I said about work, I am all about it. Work is going well right now. I have four days I work 10 hours and then three days off in a row! It’s awesome! But I have to figure out what to do on my days off. So I was wondering if any of you had anything to suggest.  If you send me your suggestions I will post a blog with pictures from that activite. The person will also get a little shout out from me for their help with my boredem.

Things to remember when thinking of a weekend activity:

1.) I live in Washington State (City: Bremerton)

2.) I don’t have a car right now!

3.) Try and make it cheap because I have lots of bills to pay! Lol.

4.) My weekend days are Wed, Thurs, Fri.

Ok…ready? Go! Think up somethings real nice. K?

Ok and as far as the pictures of Marc go, I will get them up here as soon as I can. And then everyone can stare at his Shiba Inu cuteness! Right now I’m on a work computer so it doesn’t have his pictures. The next post will be Marc crazy!

Thank you for understanding.

Readers,

I don’t believe that I will be making multiple posts in the span of a week often. So thus the title of this post..

During the time that I was waiting to start my new job I started a small log. It was a log that I used to document my depression. It was very short because I was too depressed at times to acctually post on it. So that acctually brings me to right now. I had a sharp pang of depression just a while ago because of a figure I saw on T.V.

Anyways, on top of my depression I also have a haunting addiction. Telling you that should have just told you the cause of my depression. It’s not just fear but seizing panic that I feel in my chest with strong fast heavy breathing. I fear the unknown. I fear the afterlife. Everyone tells me of their beliefs but they mean nothing to me without the proof that I need to finally relax! (No offense to anyone’s beliefs of course!). I panic, I hurt, I cry, I twitch. This fear hurts so bad! The reason I am so fixated on the haunting shows is because I’m hoping that one day one of these shows will show me the security that I need to stop freaking out about everything.

I’m sorry. I should put a disclaimer here to warn people of my depression before reading…

Just to try and make up for this horrible post, I’m going to leave you with a picture of my little sister and I when I went to see her for her birthday.

Goodnight lovelies.

People of Sanrio world!

Alright, technically it is illegal for me to discuss things from work. So I will try and figure out ways of not speaking about things that will get me sent to jail. I handle government and corporate accounts so I have to be very careful about what I say and do. But as you may know from my previous entry, WORK CONSUMES MY LIFE.

So there is this program at work, for the sake of security we will call it GMS. So GMS is this program that has all the information you could possibly want to know in my position of work. I am currently in the training class and we have to sit in with these people that have seniority. We are supposed to look to these people for guidence and are supposed to be able to ask them questions when the need arises. But what I saw today would make me never want to ask them questions. This guy! He was so rude to the customer on the phone that even I got angery. All this person wanted to know was if and how to load a program on his phone to replace 411. The customer did not like having to call 411 everytime he needed information. What the person I was sitting with should have done was consult GMS to see if there were any programs or add-ons that we have available for his use. Instead! The person I was with told the customer how to get to google on his phone and told him to just look for it from there. I believed that to be VERY rude and somewhat mean infact! Now that is the end of that story.. But of course.. I have more.

In the training class there is a woman who sits in the back of the class to judge proformance and to maintain the order/structure, she also takes care of  flaws in our training program. Now everything would be good and nice if she was not such a horrible person when she does open her mouth. Where the heck in GMS did they find this woman? And how fast can they send her back… The evil she wench. She glares at people when they ask questions and she always assumes everyone is wrong.HOW DARE SHE!…anyways.

My love has told me to watch this movie.. Equilibrium. It is so sad.. Christian Bale is the main character.. But this movie is so… so unbelievably… just so.. I can’t rightly say it. It is humanity at it’s worst, it is the depiction of the horrors that can occur when humans believe they can block out the things that make us human so that we can try and find a way to peace. But without feeling what is peace worth? Nothing. And this person realizes that. The person that I am speaking of just happens to be one of the people that are here to keep all of the emotions away.. and to kill the people that do feel.

Good night.

(Just to let people know. There are picture links on this page)

Hello!,

Hi! I’m new here and I’m just trying to get the hang of things before I get really involved here. I should introduce myself before I go much further.

My name is Alice and I live in Washington state with my boyfriend, dog, iguana and hedgehog. We are renting a house in Western Washington where we are trying to just be a nice happy tiny family. I turn 21 in November and I love to work. Bringing up work… My boyfriend works as a security guard and his hours are pretty late so we don’t see eachother as much as we should. I work rediculessly early hours and am a customer service repersentative over the phone. Yes, I am one of those people that you call to get customer service over the phone. It’s acctually alot more difficult then it sounds. Anyways, I am kind of a work-aholic so forgive me if I ramble on about it. I am a big fan of animals, that’s the reason why I have the ones that I do. My sister and my mother live in Seattle so they aren’t to far from me. I love to cook, love to have a clean house, love to hang out with my animals! I have a few hobbies: I enjoy knitting, drawing, reading, painting, writing and trying to do arts on my computer… which I have found to be very difficult so far. That’s enough for now I suppose.

My dogs name is: Marc

My iguanas name is: Iggy

My hedgehogs name is: Sonya

Anyways, it is really late and as I said before I wake up rediculessly early in the morning to go to work.

Good night!